:) Peace till then.

Michael,

You're welcome, I look forward to it. So for my time, let's do Monday at 8pm CT. Which I believe is 8am your time on Tuesday.

Please let me know if you have a paid zoom account we can meet on. Otherwise, we can do skype - send me your email / account name. If you don't have skype ...

Michael,


sorry for late reply again. I was almost resentful towards you suggesting I might have seen through the illusion. It feels like the seeing is no clearer than it was when I first stumbled upon nonduality. Feels even less clear. Back then I could at least dilute myself into imagining some ...

Michael,


So realizing this is impossible. Realization being just another misleading word. So what the hell is this about then?


What does the hearing, seeing, feeling have to say about this? When you don't refer to a thought, what the hell is this about?


Everything just more thoughts that “I ...

All good! Thanks for heads up.
Gunnar

Hey, Thats okay Liz, life happens.


see, when all this all this energetic and consciousness stuff happened initially. How do I say this?.. I started being able to do “things” and it can get de-calibrated (if that’s a word) when something is off in my system ?.. it can get weird and end up like a ...

Michael,


Yes this lapsing back into the I is an automatic habituated process.


Is there an 'I' or some entity that's 'lapsing back' into identity? Otherwise, what is happening in direct experience when you speak of this 'lapsing back into the I'.


Yes but some thoughts feel very sticky ...

Rube,

Sweet. Let's go. I'm curious, too! Like I mentioned before, I think it was difficult for us guides to understand your writing, so let's really emphasize clarity here. Please clarify when differentiating between what is real and illusion by using phrases such as:

(1) The illusion in the ...

Hey Dimos,

I can say doubt still arises and catches hold here. I imagine/hear it fully settles at some point. But more importantly...

It's about seeing through doubt and inquiring - who is caught up in this doubt? Who is the doubt referring to? Is there a doubter? ... What is doubt made up of? Is ...

Rube,


As I see it, we're struggling to decipher whether some of your writing is referring to the illusion of self or what you believe to be reality/true.


Based on this, our guiding community is not ready to confirm your 'crashing of the gate' so to speak. Are you interested in engaging a bit ...

Michael,


Here's what came up about "what is a hand?"

It is what I use to interact with the environment
It’s to grab things
It’s made out of bones and flesh
It can feel
I can move and control it
It has nails and five fingers
It has joints
It’s connected to my arm
There are two of them on a human ...

Hey Rube,

Thanks for the message, still interacting with other guides trying to assess your writing. As I see it, we're struggling to decipher whether some of your writing is referring to the illusion of self or what you believe to be reality/true.

I'll be back in touch in the coming days.
Gunnar

MIchael,


(3) While still paying attention to the sensations move one hand and observe the movement from the mirror. Is there any connection between the felt sensations (labelled ‘hand’) and image of movement in the mirror?
Same as above. The sensations seem to happen localized around the actual ...

Rube,


Relating to the examples, you write "what is actually happening is what thought says is so". What do you mean by this?
What I mean is that 'what is actually happening' cannot be touched by words, or thought's content at least I struggle to convey or describe it because it becomes, as some ...

Michael,


Hey Gunnar, sorry I sometimes struggle with episodes of lethargy/laziness/depression whatever you wanna call it where I can't get myself to do anything. Think I'm back on track now and thank you for checking in!

Will reply to you later today again regarding the exercises. Sorry for ...