good place

[daisyrain]

I like this

[daisyrain]

at this point the best way to put my confusion into "words" is:

?!

Like it's saying: "But what of it?"
hm. Clearly, the not-knowing-part is a bit of a surprise.

asking, "but what expectation was there (for me to be irritated with this)?" yields strong body reaction.
Well, it might be just the body being felt very,... raw-ly.


whew. a lot is clear from here.

story comes: "But what of it?"

Genuine irritation/wondering about that part

[daisyrain]

Something I just noticed is the pattern of
Looking
Seeing
"Liking the result"
And then being hesitant to look again because "upon closer inspection it might be all wrong"

[graceabounds]

who asks ‘but what of it?’

does the skeptic exist?

[daisyrain]

does the skeptic exist?

not really.


Thought: How can I answer so quickly?
Thought: Have I checked this enough?
Thought: How can I be sure?


Feeling the skepticism in the left brow. Left hand. Anger comes up. Sensation in upper legs now.

does the skeptic exist?

there's a movement of "imagining him".

...

i think underlying that might be fear.
there was a little contact with it

[graceabounds]

Can you feel the sensations under fear and anger and shine some light on them?

Emotion = sensation + thought

We know what the thoughts are. Are they actually connected to the sensations? Which comes first?