How is it feeling today? :)

Hey Ilona. It´s feelin´groovy! Chilled, resting in itself, meeting the inner and outer world without resistance or hankering.It´s light, almost transparent, everything moves through, nothing sticks. Where´s Eeyore?

I´m travelling today, everybody wants to talk to me ...

Hihi, no case is hopeless. Hope is non issue.

I see you're coming out on another side, nice.

One question, what was it that pushed you over the edge? Can you describe what happened?

And another question is, how would you tell about absence of 'me' to somebody who never heard about it?

What ...

Hihi, no case is hopeless. Hope is non issue.

I see you're coming out on another side, nice.

One question, what was it that made to look? Can you describe what happened?

And another question is, how would you tell about absence of 'me' to somebody who never heard about it?

Hope is a non ...

awesome!
sobering up is fun, after all these years of feeling drunk. beware of hangover, lol. it takes some time for the system to rebalance.

can you answer these questions as you see now:

is there a you in any shape or form in reality? was there ever?
how does it feel to see the true nature of ...

Does awareness need someone to be aware? it's all happening same time, now. Is there a witness?


How about a cat? Is there a witness in a cat?

Keep cooking.
And keep focus on the obvious. You can never find entity behind word I because it does not exist.
All there is is life happening by ...

Great stuff, Canute. I see you are right at the not knowing bit, which is a signpost for entering the gate...

Is there a 'you' to cross?
Is there a gate?

Just read Ciarans latest post, felt somber after that. Then I get the above from you, spirit lifts at the sound of the inbox. Appreciate the ...

Ok, now turn around 180 degrees and look at the other side: what is true?
What is real?
What is?

Sights, sounds, body sensations, thoughts on a screen. True? It´s all there, but is it true? The question stumps me. It all feels real, but that doesn´t mean it´s true or real. Like the exercise ...

Brilliant, some anger and frustration is welcome at this place, let it burn, see the lie that has been living in the system for years feeding on shame, guilt and feeling of not enough.
It's all a lie.
Look at how beliefs a formed- passed in from one human to another through 'repeat after me ...

Good going. Getting very close.
Not knowing is the best place to be.
Let the doubt in, doubt all you ever known, then ask for truth to come through.

It's already happening anyway, watch it unfold..

Is there a you?

OK, another day. Had a good nights rest, highly unusual for me! Something´s ...

Good going. Getting very close.
Not knowing is the best place to be.
Let the doubt in, doubt all you ever known, then ask for truth to come through.

It's already happening anyway, watch it unfold..

Is there a you?

Thanks Ilona. Sweet new piece of homework. I had a very short night last ...

I can see it is working..
there wont be any fireworks and no angels are coming down, shift is very subtle. you may not even notice, so no need to wait for it.

notice breathing and the tingling sensations, and awareness in which all is felt, is any of this personal? is this feeling contained in a ...

Or the 'me'. It's not anywhere other than in the mind. And in the mind there are stories about me, but no me at all.

Now look again, is it true, that there is no entity behind word 'me' or not?

Tell please, what comes up.

Lots of vague and not-so-vague perceptions, memories and judgements ...

Don't worry about little technicalities, it does not matter.
yes, sense of being alive, beingness, amness is like a wave, we only assume that there is an entity behind because it has never been questioned.

how can you see an absence?
look at an object, like a pen or something in front of you ...

Ilona, I messed up the quote function in my last post. But I trust you´ll discern what´s your part and what´s mine.

ilona :
look now at your direct experience, how does it work? notice how thoughts come, fingers type, what else is going on right now. is there any effort required for experience to happen? notice that all that IS happening by itself in the now. can there be a separate self in this picture? was ...