Nice to see you're still here Freddi.

When I look for a self I begin to notice body sensation (not self), thoughts (stories of self) and fuzzy background thoughts (deep assumption of self). The surface level thoughts are easy to see through as not self, but the fuzzy deeper layers take some ...

Hi Freddi - I'm back. Wondering if you're still available for a bit of guidance.

what are you looking for that isn’t this?’, which do you trust most?

The mind is the only thing which produces an illusion of anything other than This. Looking for what isn't in direct experience is impossible unless tuning into and believing thought. Thought happens, the content of which depicts ...

Yes good points.

What are you looking for that isn't this, right now?

The mind could answer with a million things, but they could all essentially fall into the category of 'a Super Brant'. Not putting the question for the mind to answer pulls me to first see who/what is asking the question. At ...

Hey Freddi. The past few weeks I've done something unusual... I've continued looking and watching. In the past I could only go 3-4 weeks before it became too much and I'd get kind of down on not being able to see what I needed to see. The weight of self has subsided - things are less personal now ...

Ask yourself : Who or what is it that is seeking ‘no me’ clarity? Who or what needs a reason for this?
See what comes up and let me know.

There is usually a feeling behind the eyes... followed by a thought of a thinker. if i trace the source of that thought and try to see it in real life it ...

Hey Freddi - I'm here til the end. I may need to take time off and regroup and re-attack though. Doesn't mean I won't still be working at it and watching and questioning.

The last week I've been looking and watching a lot. I've been looking at resistance and what it is, and also fishing around to ...

Really? Is that a verifiable fact or an assumption? Does an action need an subject to be carried out? Get up, walk across the room and look at what is actually happening in direct experience, not in assumptions. Is there a ‘you’ doing the walking or is there just walking? What do you see?

what i ...

Who or what is looking for a change? Who or what would like not to have to be 100% vigilant, who or what would like to be a better self? A thought? An idea? Can an idea be improved by a thought?
Is this anything more than a nice little mind labyrinth? This can go on and on, like a hamster wheel ...

Please consider this for a moment and stay with it: What are you looking for that is not already here? What expectations do you have about what seeing would be like? Give me a good rant on what you are looking for.

I'm looking for a change... something where i don't have to be 100% vigilant 100 ...

So I watched for an hour last night and an hour just then... not sure how to proceed anymore.

Question that belief. How is it manifested? Is it a physical sensation? Is it a contraction in the abdomen? Look at it. Is that contraction 'Brant'? Is it a sensation of aliveness? Give it your whole ...

I'll take some time now. I am a little confused... have got it... haven't got it... what's to be got... by who... it all seems irrelevant somehow or not so important.

I was wrong - there is still a strong belief in a me there. It's been a tough day or two after the highs of the previous few. I ...

Are these thoughts believed? By whom

Exactly - who can do the believing - no-one - there are just thoughts.

Are experiences allowed to come and go?

Who or what can possibly disallow experiences. So yes they are allowed to come and go. No choice in the matter.


I'll take some time now. I am a ...

Ok, things have been a bit confusing over the last few days - sometimes I'm totally positive I've seen what I need to see (that there is no seer), then others I'm not so sure. All the positive affects from that deeper looking experience have mostly worn off now (from what I can tell), but I'm no ...

I'm in a very spotty reception area at the moment - have to type this on my phone outside. I'll type a response to your questions offline and post them tomorrow. I have no doubts now though... gateless gate makes sense now.