Hello Kay.

I’m sorry for delay in communicating. I’ve decided to take your suggestion and stick with my addiction program for now and delay LU looking until the new year. I've considered if it's resistance but It just seems to make sense to come back to it when I'm less busy externally, especially ...

Report back once you have read it and redone all the exercises....so however long that takes. It may take a couple of weeks. But please, don't rush doing it. Really read what is written and redo the exercises with total focus.


Ok. I will do this and report back after however long it takes ...

Had I known that you were still doing other things ie Buddhists meeting etc, I would have asked you to stop. LU is about seeing through beliefs - and all spiritual philosophies are full of beliefs about what the separate is and isn't....and this only creates conflict and confusion. Please put all ...

Hi Kay also I've just now decided to drop one Buddhist study group commitment on a Monday evening which is one less commitment and may or may not give more space to focus on this LU inquiry. With Love Patrick.

6) Anything to add?

Hi again Kay.

One thing which is unclear is that there's isn't a connection between 'thought/memory thought/stimulus' and 'sensation'. For example if my neighbour plays loud aggressive music for two hours that there is no connection between that and a feeling of 'distress ...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience.
Describe it fully as you see it now.

3) How does it feel to see ...

Is there a separate individual/entity that is the ‘experiencer’?

Is there a separate entity that is the doer?

Is there ‘someone/something’ who can control what happens?

Is there a ‘self’ that can ‘make decisions’?

Is there a separate ‘person’ who ‘does the thinking’?

Or a ‘separate self’ that ...

Hi Kay. Your explanation of the 'now' is what I was originally going to write and then I changed it.

Here are my answers to memory and future:

What is memory exactly?
What is the memory ‘made of’?

What is the exact difference between a ‘general’ thought and a ‘memory’ thought?

WHEN does the ...

So what exactly is the Now?

Thanks for waiting over weekend Kay.

The now/present moment is simply a label/thought about time which is also a label/thought. It cannot be described as it cannot be found.

Regards Patrick.

But is there an experience that the ’now’ is moving along the line of time?
Any experience of one ‘moment’ giving way to the next?
Any actual experience of one event following another?

How fast is the ‘present moment’ actually moving?

Just look at 'this moment', can you find a point where it ...

Thank you Kay.

I will stick to your guidance rather than any other pointers and I will take my time to look at time questions on Thursday evening and get back to you then.

Regards Patrick.

Hi Kay Thank you for message.

Lovely! So in actual experience a body cannot be found and sensations are simply sensations, can an "I" be found that is actually experiencing?


An "I" cannot be found that is actually experiencing.

But is there an experience that the ’now’ is moving along the ...

Hi Kay.

As well as noticing feelings of resistance and anxiety during this exploration I've also noticed other feelings emerging of wonder/excitement/interest, aliveness/energy, peace/relief, sadness/tearfulness, gratitude/love.

[quoteWere you able to find and feel "I/me" in a direct way like the ...

What I am trying to ascertain is how you feel now compared to when we started this exploration. Has there been a shift...even subtle shift? Have you noticed any perceptual changes? What is different about how you see yourself and life? Has the idea about being a separate independent entity shifted ...

How does it feel to see what you have seen to date? I want you to check in with the body..yes...it's paradoxical..but how does it feel in the body? Is the body heavy, light, is the mind busy or calmer...how does it feel?


Hi Kay.

Experience is mixed but particularly when time and attention is ...