Ready for everything at this point

[doppelganger]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
Mostly semantics. Different teachings has different takes on "self" definition, it can be inner dialog, continuous narration of observable events and of narration itself; it can be glue connecting memories and provides feeling of continuity, attributes memories and feelings to "me". So this little bureaucrat who registers things post-hoc.

What are you looking for at LU?
I care about fighting existential dread and fear of death. I realize this very body and cognition will cease to exist and unless and I realize how to expand my little walled ego into the universe, I will cease to be as an entity, living fear and contemption till the last breath. I don't like that. Yes, I am selfish and bitter, but looking to be a better version of self. I want to connect with the bigger entity, to become fearless, to be that endless space. Right now I just little me playing my little games with myself.

What do you expect from a guided conversation?
Not much really. Friend recommended it, I have zero expectations. Would love to engage it honestly, like I did with many other practices. Expecting it to be practical and focused, without any specific spiritual flavor or illogical nonsense.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?
Got refugee from lama Ole Nydal Diamond Lineage in 2011, on Phowa course. Practicing meditation since, last year almost daily. Mostly Anapana or Vipassana, short practices 10-30 minutes. Sometimes with mantras. Listened to Rupert Spira and Swami Sarvapriyananda (not anymore, Advaita Vedanta is interesting intellectually, but lack specific practices).

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self? 10