Unbecoming the character

[darorl89]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this? I understand that the goal is to realize by me directly that there is no "me", as a conceptual framework, separate entity, with "free will" and other concepts that only clutter the mind with assumptions and beliefs.

What are you looking for at LU? I'm looking for guidance towards the last question. I want someone to show me where I have false assumptions and beliefs that block the final realization. I need someone that I'm able to work with towards final breakdown of self.

What do you expect from a guided conversation? I would like direct, "slap in the face" even pointers. More direct the better. If you are able to show me where are my blocks to undermine, that would be perfect. I just expect to make progress with awakening

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry? I'm seeking for 5 years consciously, last 3 with maximum intensity and suffering. That's basically the only thing I do now.
As per experience:
Meditation since 2019, on and off
Years of psychedelic use, most of them, a lot
Been in "spirituality", got out since it's all pretty but that's all about it
Years of self inquiry, lots of questioning
Spiritual autolysis
Tons of books on the topic

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self?

11

[poppyseed]

Hi darorl89
(what do you want me to call you?)

Welcome to Liberation Unleashed :)! It’s great to see you here!
My name is Rali, and I’ll be glad to be your guide if you like.

Here at LU we assist in the exploration of the idea of the separate self. This is a guiding based on experience that brings a shift in perception and is not a debate. It directly points to what IS through the use of exercises, questions and dialogue. What is expected from you is to LOOK carefully to what is being pointed at. It is this simple LOOKING (not thinking) that brings a shift in perception.

Here, we are LOOKING directly into the experience of the senses, which is actually here and now, with the thinking stripped away. It is also known as Direct Experience (DE) or Actual Experience (AE). In this way, we are aiming to discover what is truly happening without the story we tell ourselves. For this process to work you have to answer with 100% honesty, and not relying on thought, imagination or memory - just reporting your direct experience. That would also mean leaving spiritual teachings, philosophies and science away during the inquiry. If you have a meditation practice, please feel free to continue with it as usual – it might come helpful.

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For the sake of the intensity of the inquiry let’s try to stick to a daily conversation. Of course, life happens, so if you need more time, please let me know. I will do as well.

What time zone are you in?
Love
Rali