Unbecoming the character

[darorl89]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this? I understand that the goal is to realize by me directly that there is no "me", as a conceptual framework, separate entity, with "free will" and other concepts that only clutter the mind with assumptions and beliefs.

What are you looking for at LU? I'm looking for guidance towards the last question. I want someone to show me where I have false assumptions and beliefs that block the final realization. I need someone that I'm able to work with towards final breakdown of self.

What do you expect from a guided conversation? I would like direct, "slap in the face" even pointers. More direct the better. If you are able to show me where are my blocks to undermine, that would be perfect. I just expect to make progress with awakening

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry? I'm seeking for 5 years consciously, last 3 with maximum intensity and suffering. That's basically the only thing I do now.
As per experience:
Meditation since 2019, on and off
Years of psychedelic use, most of them, a lot
Been in "spirituality", got out since it's all pretty but that's all about it
Years of self inquiry, lots of questioning
Spiritual autolysis
Tons of books on the topic

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self?

11