Sounds perfect Ditti.
Exactly that, and, if the thought comes that a real belief in separate self has re-established, look into it. What is believed to be a self? Without trying to make it go away, just see it as clear as possible, then check if it is a self, or what is it in direct experience...
Beside this here are some resources/places to connect you might explore along the way:
Here is a list of resources, ways to explore and connect:
1)
Three weekly free zoom meetings which offer a space to listen, share and offer guidance around awakening, as and if the inclination arises, with friend and fellow guide Vince Schubert. Please contact Vince Schubert via email:
vinceschubert@gmail.com for a link and schedule. Or check his web page
https://1ness.info/
2)
Simply Awake app - Free app for your phone that contains dozens of meditation that will help you to keep looking deeper.
Also a great video from Angelo Dilullo on this process and how it deepens on its own, if not resisted, YouTube: Simply Always Awake "Self and No-Self":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3X_Xpd10pV0&t=38s
3)
If you're interested in the 10 fetters Buddhist model (what we did here pertains to the first 3) go to Kevin Shanilek's website for information:
https://simplytheseen.com/
Also a good video conversation with Ilona and Kevin Shanilek:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xWfBHN6oRk
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Todd and Pernille Lent Damore offer many videos on each fetter, from a different, more psychologically minded approach, on their YouTube Channels:
Unfettered Mindfulness and The Awakening Curriculum
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Some people like Kevins approach more, some like theirs, some both in different ways.... In continuation of Kevins approach there is also Christiane Michelbergers "Finding Awakening" community on Facebook:
https://www.facebook.com/share/g/1Av8vfhMct/
And Craig's Fetterfree group, free of charge weekly meetings exploring fetters mainly in Kevins approach:
https://www.facebook.com/groups/715430672860996
4)
POK Perfectly Okay.Org:
https://perfectlyokay.org/ - A large, free of charge, supportive awakening community that has many different modalities and meetings, generally free of charge.
Every second Wednesday Becca (another LU guide and friend) and I hold free of charge meetings there for people who work with other people, as guides, or in processes that might combine awakening and therapy or healing.
https://www.facebook.com/groups/1112255896719535
Speaking of that, once this settles some, you might want to guide in LU. Guiding also guides us - can bring up blind spots and areas where we might benefit from looking freshly. I mentor new guides in LU and could mentor you if you want to embark on guiding at some point.
5)
Becca and I also have a weekly sangha called Awake Collective. It is relatively new and it seems focused on very raw and honest exchanges, energetic aspects of aweakening process, and shadow work, in a context where some people have seen through seperate self and some have not, but everybody have a lot to contribute have done a fair amount of shadow work and/or inquiry, waking up and growing up processes.... This group has a members fee, but anyone who sincerely wanna be a part can, no matter what their economic situation is.
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Finally Ilona Cuinaite who was one of the founders of LU has I believe monthly meetings.
https://ilonaciunaite.com/
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Stay in touch Amy! Happy to hear how things continue to unfold for you... Feel free to write me here or to my email with questions, updates, anything :)
It was beautiful to do this process with you - thank you!
Love,
Elad