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[tia22]

As your attention focuses on what is going on in the mind, do you feel a sense of self or me?

This is interesting. When there are active thoughts, there doesn’t seem to be a sense of ‘me’. The sense of ‘me’ seems to only pop up when I am looking for it or contextually insinuating that it is there. Like a self-fulfilling prophecy. It seems to be a thought after the fact

Is the sense of me the me that is in charge of your life?

Staying in the illusory perspective- I don’t know how a ‘me’ that is only present as an afterthought could be in charge of anything. The mind has completely stopped. I can’t seem to look further into this right now.

[tia22]

Is looking for a ‘me’, possibly reifying the sense of a me??

[Bluejay]

Looking for the 'me' doesn't reify it, so nothing to worry there. Once the penny drops fully, you can't bring back the self even if you wanted to.

Keep looking into any remaining sense of me.

What exactly is it that would be reified?

When something reifies, it has become a thing, so if you experience the reification of the self:
What does it look like?
What color does it have?
What is its shape?

🙂

If you can't inquire more right now, take a break for a bit and let me know if the sense of self returns.

[tia22]

Yeah, the “sense of self” doesn’t really make sense right now. There isn’t the same sense of urgency for things to be different or better. Something feels different. I’m not insinuating there has been a shift necessarily, because I don’t know what that is or what that would look like. The thoughts feel more distant and not as binding. I don’t know. But I will take a little break and let you know if the sense of self seems to emerge in experience.

🤗😘

[Bluejay]

Alright. Let me know if a self is found.

Be careful not to dismiss anything. Remember the brain wants to get rid of the cognitive dissonance. Stay with the experience instead of what makes sense. 👍