your answer was quick

the pleasure was mutual, thank you very very much xain, i feel very grateful and would like take my hat of for you and the other guides

looking forward to other forums and further looking, the fire has just been lit

Xain, yes indeed, using thought creates a circular reference to other thoughts and all the limitations of language apply, thoughts separate and try to comprehend or objectify experience while originating from and being a small non-separate flavour of that very same stream of experience, word-based ...

5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience if you can.

as i am typing this reply words come up, fingers move, the mind gets engaged and confused, thoughts and comments ...

thx Life en Patrick, ja word idd al begeleid door Xain

4) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now. Use conventional language here, it's OK.

the illusion of separate self is a misunderstanding or case of mistaken identity

i wrote about 'a ...

was about to send my answer but the system just threw me out haha, have to rush to work now and will reply again tonite

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
NO! nothing graspable, nothing real, nothing separate, nowhere, never was, a virtual thought construct, just thoughts as a part of direct experience

2) How does it feel to see this? What ...

hi xain, back home, little bit jetlagged, will resume replies asap
warm regards, fred

no further questions your honor, the mind rests and bows down, as much as i would love to pretend otherwise

nothing changes, how simple, obvious and uneventful

lets see if i can undo this realization, the mind really enjoyed this hide and seek interaction

yes you can send your questions, i will ...

nothing more to say or ask really, that would sound unreal or hollow, only this dance of life, it feels kind of lighter and relaxed, less noisy and 'letting go', not as an act of a 'me' but just happening, thats the experience now

challenging situations may appear again and i guess that all ...

there is no 'me' to be found, no 'body controller' no 'chooser', no thing, it is all just thought and sense Xain, as a part of a complete experience, there is no way to disprove that and when typing these words even that is seen as just that, a response that is not done by something separate

it is ...

the body appears to work perfectly well on its own for most functions, growing, repairing itself, digesting, pumping blood, breathing, reflexes etc performing billions of operations with amazing intelligence

however conscious thinking appears to be involved for directing and moving the body like ...

yes its a fair statement to say that i is just a thought and therefore not rea, real in the sense of a separate and solid entity that can be seen and found

to recap, senses thoughts emotions and whatever arises, just experience is the correct statement, nothing is separate our outside experience

my wife just came in the room where i was sitting, i was listening to a LU video that i was running loudly tru the loudspeakers, she brurst into laughter and said: you are crazy! still seeking for something that does not exist?
i burst into laughter as well, the funny thing being she is not into ...

what do you mean by 'realized', how does it manifest, the very word creates an expectation, 'i should realize that there is no me and see tru the illusion' and this should be a different experience from what i have now, i don't see it and i don't know what to say that makes sense and does not feel ...