5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control - the more I look at / investigate these, the less they seem to ...

I am so happy for you! Yay!

Thank you! :-) It feels good.

LU has various support groups where, once seeing has happened, experiences can be shared, and support can be had.

Good. :-)

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever ...

How do you feel about that now? Are you still seeking for awakening?

I feel that, after yesterday, I'm through the gate. (And I recommend shiatsu to everyone!!! ;-) ) There is a feeling that, if this isn't it, I can walk away in perfect contentment and maybe return if / when it clicks to check ...

There is confusion here and it's possible this is due to the words chosen to convey what I was experiencing this morning.

bejahu wrote:
I don't know. There is a feeling of looking, of interest, which suggests someone's doing it... dunno... lol!

Well, look straight at where the doubt is. Stop ...

What stayed with the thought/feeling, was it you?

When I first read this yesterday, I thought "aaagh!"

Conveniently(! ;-) ), there aren't any big self thoughts to stay with right now. After generating thoughts to stay with, there is a feeling of energy rising to kind of encapsulate them (the ...

Focus in "the self exists" feeling. See if this remains constant or if its more like something that seems to be turned on and off. Maybe you find out that it is actually difficult to track that feeling for even 10 minutes.

OK, a big self thought / feeling came in yesterday evening (it was even ...

bejahu wrote:
for a little while there was clarity and no self. Then more thoughts came in.

Did the thoughts made the self that wasn't there before pop from its hiding place? Where was it hidden?

There were lots of thoughts, and a lot of them were me thoughts, but I still can't find a me that ...

'I' can't HAVE confidence, but there can be a feeling of confidence.

The "thoughts storm" came from nowhere and it will go away

Yes! This is what is happening!

What happens if the resistance stops?

After reading this, I sat down and looked into the resistance. I got to the bottom of part of it and there was a huge feeling of release, and for a little while ...

I can see that you are expecting to reach a "better" state in an imagined future, where there is no confusion or getting caught up in the story going on. Confusion happens, getting caught up in the story also happens. To what? Is it to a you? Can you find this you or only the experiencing of ...

I feel guilty for tying up so much of your time!

It's not "my" time and I also find these kind of conversations invaluable. You are very, very welcome.

Thank you. :-)

What counts here is your no, there is no I, not what I know/think. Take your time, how could this happen any other way? And ...

By reading your last posts I don't think that - if you look for it - you can believe again in a you, even if you want too!

OK, you know more about this stuff than I do. :-) I suppose a feeling of more certainty would be nice, that seems to be what you're implying. (Have I ever been certain of ...

I realised there never was a 'me', a 'Beverley' - just 'me' thoughts. I can't see how there could ever be a 'me', although 'me' thoughts will probably continue indefinitely.

Where can the me be found? Look for it and tell me what you see :)

( Very nice answers! This is somewhere the me can be ...

Do you notice that you are finding the answers on your own, just by looking?

I sometimes feel this is happening, when I step back from thoughts.

What you are starting to do is the cleaning of years and years of conditioning. Well done.

Thank you. I'm just wondering how much of this junk there ...

bejahu wrote:
This is one area I have concerns in, I have to admit.

What happens to the concerns if you look to what is happening now?
Look, what are the concerns made of?

The concerns aren't here / now. There are a lot of thoughts about 'succeeding' or not with regard to getting away from the ...