drop all the stuff of how "you" relate to the "world".
right now let it all drop.
drop everything until there is nothing left.
then drop that.
empty.
no up, no down, and no sides.
no center, and,
no "I"
just this, is,
such.

Hey Knick,
See if you can locate a control center, a physical feeling tone say in the head. this is where knowing manifests from, or so it seems.
1.is there anything stable there?
2.are you "in control" of the knowing?
and, please in your own words, no commentary, be genuine, drop all prior ...

Hey that matches my shirt! I'm kinda on retreat here at the monastery so I'm gonna try to be quiet on the Internet till next Friday. Peace

Well I was just wanting to clear up any semantic confusion with the question, "do you exist?". Now that I'm clear on the semantics I am sure of my answer. No I do not exist. And I'm not gonna type all that stuff again. It's already been explained. Besides explaining self is like explaining a fantasy ...

just to be clear:
what is you?
and,
what is exist?

no seems like such a short answer so I'm gonna say, NO.

self is a grouping of views about events that have happened, in ones life. One takes life personally and carries the illusion that these memories, coupled with up bringing and social conditioning, are a fixed thing. maybe one thinks personality goes to heaven or hell or no-where at all(nihilism ...

here it is.......
Grew up in a rough environment, addiction/alcoholism was the norm. I developed a hard core addiction to drugs and alcohol. I wanted to run from all the fucked up shit in my life. So, I used whatever I could get my hands on. Usually, to the point of blacking out, or falling asleep ...

I'll get back to you on this. Gotta go take a bunch of trash from the monastery to a landfill. you know real life stuff. I type very slow with only 2 fingers. I do have 10 just use only 2. anyway, should have it up within 6 hours. thanks.

decision are much easier with there being less stickiness. I do have preferences.
I don't think this inquiry is gonna do the job for final stages, could get someone to stream entry. just because I use "i" "me" and "mine" doesn't mean I believe it is a real solid agent.
a personal choice that one ...

just thought with no me (selfing). this is the Buddha's instructions to Bahaya. check. can a thought think? hm there is nothing. ah not close enough, percipient of nothing.
just walking
just sleeping
only seeing
just thought. this, just this is perfect.
This is just repeating what I said in an ...

ahh now were getting closer.
this is the exact inquiry that led me to start using the witness as focus (and within a month I attained stream entry). That is, seeing if I can locate thoughts. I found then and even more now that wherever I think thought is coming from; usually somewhere inside the ...

"me" is a word used to describe ownership, which I do not have, because if I did I'd make the sensations how I wanted them to be. even though self is seen through shitty energetic stuff is going on, quite intense currently, I still get angry briefly (usually is more physical tension now than mental ...

No not aliveness just being/craving.
selfless, already got that part. it is not self. reset button was hit at least 2 times. I know that one can dwell in the unbound state because I have temporary flashes of no center what so ever. this is different than no self (anatta). I'm referring to conceit ...

lets clear this up 315.
when in 'now' all feelings of being vanishes, but it does not remain. for instance i may be walking keeping mind in now and ask my self "why is this moment not perfect", or something to that effect and look around while looking in and being present, then I may see my body in ...