Thanks for bearing with me Susan. Discouragement came to visit, as we've been at this for some time and there's not a sense of progress, feeling a little stuck at one spot. But if you don't mind me taking so long and are willing to go on, I'll do my best. (Who will do their best?! Argh! This is what ...

Hi Susan, it's a bit late, just got home from the beach.
Is there a perceiver/thinker, or is there just perceiving/thinking happening?
I see a similarity of the "outside " events as they occur on their own, eg.the tree sways, the ocean laps, and the "inside" events eg. impulses that give rise to my ...

Hi Susan,
Is the I the thinker of thoughts?
No.
How is the I perceiving those thoughts?
The I isn't perceiving them something else is. I can't tell what is perceiving.
Observations how a me is making life happen....
There have been lucid moments these last days where I can see the automatic ness of ...

Hi Susan, I may have discovered the problem so we may not have any more disruptions. Hopefully! So I see both your posts for the first time, I'll address your latest one now.
"How" is I adding meaning etc to life?
With nothing other than a thought. In detail... Actually, I can't be sure I is adding ...

Hi Susan,
Who can not locate an I? I'm looking for half hour here, can't answer.
Can I find an I that experiences experience? Again sitting long time, can you give me a clue what I'm looking for?
What comes up when I read " there is no me"? I believe it and I want to experience it! Who wants to ...

Susan,
Who can not locate an I? Good question. Who is I? Looking.
After sitting a good while, I can't say I find I.
I could not find the experiencer.
A mental agreement comes up for me that there is no I. No fear, no concern, there's a sense that it's the truth, I'd never argue it with someone if ...

Hi Susan,
Sitting cross legged, feel couch, hear dog, hear birds, see carpet, hear car driving, hear voices, breathing, head aching, back tension, speaking, listening, thinking, listening, looking, answering, feel anger, judging, talking, wondering, directing, hearing....
It still seems like a ...

Thanks Susan, and I'll do my homework earlier in the day and hopefully that'll work better for both of us.
I can see how the labelling just occurs with the mind. Seems that's it's job.
Rewritten...."Sometimes thoughts are seen to come, but the origin is unclear. The source is unknown. They seem to ...

Susan, a question for you. Is there a time of day when you'd prefer to read my reply? I notice my timing in the day is inconsistant and wonder if you'd prefer roughly the same time each day? A regular schedule might also help me. Just tell me according to our time zone ( not the time on the forum's ...

Hi Susan,
I love how this process brings focus, these questions and inquiry are already happening spontaneously. But to sit in this forum holds my focus to actually do the looking into.
Here goes....
I am sitting cross-legged, I feel the couch under me, I hear my dog grunt,I hear birds outside ...

Thank you Susan.
What does suffering mean to me? And how am I suffering?
After the third time of looking at this question it is clear to me that the suffering is a thought. An opinion about the event or circumstances occurring that "this shouldn't be happening" or "I don't like this". The pain, or ...

Susan I just answered your questions in lengthy detail, I submitted it, yet it doesn't appear here. Are you able to read it somewhere? I don't fancy doing the whole exercise again, it doesn't feel authentic to remember what I wrote either. If you can't find it, can we begin afresh?
Shannon

Alright!
1) expectations and outcome, and how will this feel?
I have no idea how it will feel. Perhaps much the same, but I expect that life will go on without the suffering of it. However I don't really know. Outcome?....that there will be a ceasing of resisting the life, that I will not get in the ...

Hi Susan, I am ready when you are.
:)
Shannon

Dear Richard,
At the moment there is no urge to say anything. There is no explanation for this. Should the urge to write back arise, I shall resume correspondence.
Thank you for your assistance up til now.
All the best,
Shannon