Yay -- thank you! I'm forever grateful!

Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your experience.

I wanted to add to this because there could be some interpretation in my last response.

I'm lying in bed right now and thinking about my day.... what am I going to do ...

Anything to add?

I don't know of anything I could say that wouldn't be a big story...But I will ask for feedback and what's next -- if anything.. and/or suggestions.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

When I realized that I don't make actions happen... The thoughts happen after the action. Then I could see that happens constantly. I really saw how nothing was running the show.... or habits were running the show.

Then it really ...

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

I don't understand this question-- Made me look and start this process or when I realized there is no self?

Thanks for clarifying-- the storymaker upper is not dead.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?


No- not ever- the separate self is not true-

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and ...

Look! What is the crux of the doubt or fear here? What questions remain unanswered that you may not have articulated yet?

There is no fear here directly in this moment. There isn't ever fear in the moment-- it's always about the future. I see doubt as a habit of the mind.... a bunch of boo-hicky ...

The other separate self is thinking I'm separate from others. I know conceptually that we are all made of the same stuff but there is not a direct experience of merging with others -- unless they are in the room with me. Then they would be a part of the awareness that is happening. But again, that ...

Hello Steve,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

I cannot find a separate self when I look -- life just happens. The story of a separate self was a believed illusion and then practiced and solidified for years. There has ...

Im pretty sure I'm making up shit.

There may be some me left when I look at myself in the mirror. just a thought-- or maybe that's not possible at this point.

Hi Steve,

I eventually got some sleep! I'm surrounded by kitties snuggling with me so even when I can't sleep it's lovely. But everything seems pretty lovely--

Are there any doubts about seeing through the illusion of the separate self?

I had doubt at first -- if you remember- the sensations of ...

Hi Steve,

I couldn't sleep so I'm writing.

I'm so used to speaking in metaphors to help clients understand that I shift from direct experience without realizing it.

Do you experience an "I" that's creating awareness?
No- not at all- I'm not creating anything
Do you experience an "I" that's ...

Hello Steve,

Is there a "you" anywhere?

It's so subtle -- I barely notice that I don't feel self-conscious. It's not much different really but I was not terribly reactionary before. Today I noticed life living through my moment without feeling like I was doing anything. I kinda felt like that ...

Good morning,

Sleeping happened! Big time. I slept until 9:30am and now it's back to work until 8:30pm. Everything is fine. It seems strange but silence in this body appears as a low vibrational note (actually a few different notes). It's hard to explain. I hear it but I also FEEL it when I'm still ...