Hi Sarah,

Many thanks Sarah, you have my deepest gratitude! The work you are doing here is truly awesome!
I'll answer your PM when I get home - no fun typing on a mobile phone!

Much love Colinxx

Hi Sarah,

Can I clarify the word ‘apparent’. Is this a word choice or is there doubt? If doubt what is doubting? Is it conceivable that a reason to believe in a self could arise in DE? Is there any chance there's a non-apparent self?
According to the dictionary, here are some synonyms for ...

Hi Sarah,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
In direct experience there are thoughts, feelings and sensations arising and passing in awareness. There is no apparent separate entity self, me or I who is having the experience ...

Ok Sarah, sounds good. No hurry, I'll be here!

Love Colin

Hi Sarah,


And can you? Wouldn’t you of found one by now with all the looking happening?
Yes, unless he is extremely well hidden, that separate self would have been spotted by now. And there is really nowhere to hide.
Is there doubt or unclarity that in all the cases you have looked into the ...

Hi Sarah,


Is this ‘me-ness’ the ‘I Am’, the ‘I exist’? Is this one the same as the thought one?
The sense of ‘I am’ appears to be different from the thought based one that comes and goes.
So look through your day and ask yourself as often as you can whether that decision was done by a ‘you’ or ...

Hi Sarah,

Is me-ness separate from awareness?
No, it isn’t separate from awareness.
Is the me-ness feeling the same as the sense of a me deciding? Is there a thought in there? Does the feeling of deciding come and go or is it constant? Watch decision take place – how many of them do you actually ...

Hi Sarah,

This sense of ownership – can you locate it? Is it in labels? Is it in seeing? Is it in sensing? Where and how is it experienced? Do you own your body? Do you own right leg? Take a look with eyes open and eyes closed. Do you own your mind? How do you know? Do you own story about ...

Hi Sarah,

gain - what wants to be sure? What wants nice neat little answers and certainty?
Lets have a little dig. Where is this identification, how do you experience it – can you explain. Do you mean a feeling of me-ness? An ‘I Am’ feeling, an ‘I exist’ feeling? Or an ownership of something ...

Hi Sarah,

Are you sure about this statement now? Is this felt and known?
No, I’m not really sure about anything! If asked to find a controller, then one cannot be found apart from thoughts. Thoughts just come and go without a ‘me’ creating them. But the habit of identification still seems rock ...

Hi Sarah,

What happens when you slip then – is there a you controlling anything or is there just action? Keep looking for the you that controls anything. I don’t know if you write or like writing? When I went through this process – I wrote every day – it kind of helped me see the looking. The very ...

Hi Sarah,

Yes. There is an avoidance of all things labelled bad, a need to get rid of them. And yes the thoughts like attention. What happens when the attention goes elsewhere for you?
If the emotions are less intense, they may disappear instantly when the attention moves elsewhere. More intense ...

Hi Sarah,

OK. Have a look at that weariness. Remember the exercise I gave you a while ago – about looking at the sensation of the labelled emotion (was it stress?????). Strip away the layers of weariness and look beneath the labels and story. Weariness – is it a story created by thoughts ...

Hi Sarah,


Exactly. Look for this already. Have you read my quote at the bottom of each of my posts?
There is only this. With or without thoughts. Thoughts are the ones that want everything solved, bagged, labelled and explained. Without thoughts doing that – things are still as they are. Look ...

Hi Sarah,

And has this been experienced more often? Have things moved, shifted…..?
Yes, there is a little more awareness of thought stories and identification happening now.
I don’t know how old you are Colin – but the expectation of a moment when everything just falls into place and from that ...