Wed Sept 18 15:45 PDT

Hi Silvia,

The medication issue seems to be solved-Dr said every day (NOT skip days) and started taking it in the morning-smooth sailing!! And clear(er) head.

OK-focus on the body. Is there a body Charlie? Knee-jerk answer is no. Only perceptions - seeing a form and feeling ...

Monday, Sept 16 20:00 PDT

Hi Silvia,

The looking continues. I have read only one outside source: In "Gateless...' Charles' Story. Very closely parallels my experience. Your guidance has shortcut several of the issues in that piece for me. My "mirror experience" and the seeing that all thoughts are ...

Fri nite, Sept 6 17:20

HI SILVIA!!

New computer up and running. Last week this new one crashed on the 2nd day. Looks good now.

I've had a lot of time to get into nature, take a break from intense looking/seeking. I need some days to get this machine all installed and catch up on bills ++. Am ...

Tues, Aug 27 0900 PDT

Dear Silvia!

I sat next to Elena for two days. On Sunday, the other 5 in the room had already "had the shift." So, she went after me like a laser. My sticking points are STILL who/what is the I that's doing all this doing, trying/wanting to BE somebody, and especially ...

Friday, Aug 23 10:00 PDT
Hi Silvia,

If you want to tell me about something that feels relevant to your search just do it Charlie. Because quite frankly I'm not entirely sure I understand your post. It feels like you are censoring yourself, in case you say the "wrong" thing.

So don't be afraid to ...

Tuesday, Aug 20 10:00 PDT

Hi Silvia,

Apart from a thought that says thinking wants to make things dramatic, is there an actual experience of thought being able to do anything at all, other than being thoughts?
Apart from a thought that says stories are getting in the way, is there a direct ...

Sunday Eve - 8/18 - 19:00

Dear Silvia,

Gotta post today! Will write tomorrow. Yes, things happening. Not dramatic but, thinking wants to make it so. There is a feeling of ?spaciousness - but it's more than that. I'm excited (experiencing some excitement) to write you about it - but right now ...

Saturday, Aug. 17, 2013 12:25 PDT

Dear Silvia,

This time, it's all a LOT clearer. For me, it's a shift ongoing today and yesterday.

"the self(?) is in control (or thinks it is and/or is trying to be.) "There is no separate self so, how can something that doesn't exist think or try to be in ...

8-16 12:30 PDT

Hi Silvia,

Am taking more time to review/look at my answers. Every time I get ready to post, another seeing/yeah-but comes up, more writing. Where it's heading now is that my long-standing illusion/thought that "there are periods of not seeing clearly" is just a thought, too. i.e ...

Thursday, Aug 15 2013, 11:00 PDT
Dear Silvia,
How was the birdwatching? Cool, foggy (London?) a few birds, and basically, glorious!!
As you watched the birds, did you wonder if they too have separate little bird selves? No, not this time but it has happened in the past - the question has been: "I ...

Monday, Aug 12, 2013 19:45 PDT

Hello Silvia,
Good morning, Tuesday.
But, most important is there's no "I" doing any of it. There's just this body/mind reacting to Silvia's questions often with considerable "unpleasant sensations"/suffering. Where is this sufferer Charlie? What do you find when you ...

Monday, Aug 12, 2013 09:50 PDT
Silvia,

If by spontaneous you mean you are writing the first thought that crosses your mind without bothering to check with direct experience whether is true or not, then we are going to have some trouble you and.
I am spending no less than three hours a day ...

Sat Aug 10, 2013 14:10 PDT

Hi again Silvia,

re: "Thoughts are things."
Not sure what you mean by the idea that thoughts are things. Could you explain?
A thought about thoughts. I heard/read it somewhere and it "felt" right - but I didn't ever really investigate it. Now it seems irrelevant - like ...

Sat Aug 10, 2013 12:37 PDT

Hi again Silvia,

"My guru" fixed it!

Right now, I'm writing you - It'll be less than an hour.

c

Sat Aug 10, 2013 11:40 PDT
Good evening Silvia,

Lots of looking has been done and is continuing re your last post.

This morning here my keyboard driver went down. I'm at a neighbor's computer for just a few minutes. I can receive posts on my computer but can't type anything. My UCLA computer pal ...