I understand your concern, and I too have those doubts sometimes. I am pretty certain that I have been through the Gate, that I have seen the absence of self for what it was, but still I am open to the possibility that I might be wrong, that there is more to this than I know. Let's have Ingen take ...

It's been a while. Are you still there?

One more thing I need to ask you.

Earlier I asked you whether you were behaving like you always have, and you answered:

Yea, almost. from time to time I have this knowing that I'm not here and everything is just happening. It's like really short insights from time to time. Sometimes few times a ...

You seem disappointed. I wish I could tell you there's more, but that's all there is to liberation. This isn't about escaping suffering; it's about releasing humanity from the delusion that is responsible for so much needless suffering, so that all that's left is life, living for itself.

Not in the ...

To be frank I'm a little lost as to what to do right now. We seem to be at a similar place: looked at the idea of self, saw that it has no reality, double-checked it to death but still occasionally doubting whether we have seen all that need to be seen.

Tell you what, I'll be off for a while to ...

I want to feel this, I want to be 100% sure that theres no I.

Then look. There is no you. That's 100% true, all the time, regardless of what you may think or feel.

Listen. We indulge in the content of thought. That's what we do, and it's inevitable so long as we wish to function in civilization ...

You say you can't fully grasp this, possibly because apart from when you are looking directly into the reality of no-self, you find yourself operating within the old confines. Most thoughts still presuppose that there is a self, and it sure as hell feels that way. Not to mention the apparent ...

How about Facebook? Make a post here https://www.facebook.com/groups/241097475942811/ about where you are in regard to this "no-self" thing. And uh, this isn't going to be one-on-one anymore, though. You're either through the Gate or really really close, so let's take some help and confirm this ...

Cool. Take your time, I don't mind.

I understand that you expect something from liberation, and you don't feel you are getting it. I understand that you have ideas about what liberation should feel like, and you ain't feeling it. Therefore, you assume you are not "there" yet.

All I ask for now, is that you put those expectations ...

Okay, dude, sorry. Had a discussion with the other guides, and turns out it's probably best if you put that book aside for now. The primary goal here is to get you through the gate, to have a direct experience of no-self. This should be confirmed before all else.

So, I asked around about how the ...

You are right, this whole "no you" thing is just a simple fact. That's all it is, really. Nothing magical. Nothing profound. Just a simple fact. Though I highly disapprove of using the word "just" in the sentence.

We are talking about nothing less than seeing the core engine that our civilization ...

I guess I want some stability. As of now my thoughts and emotions are like ON/OFF switch. One day I wake up and everything is great and a few hours later Im angry and think everything totally sucks and there's no point in doing anything. It's not like I want some neverending bliss/happiness. I just ...

Even now, there are moments when I have doubts whether I have really seen it; whether liberation was triggered.

I too expected to have some sort of shift, and so I would sit down and look at it time after time, finding no experiencer and no thinker and no controller, seeing life without a division ...

While looking at the process of thinking I can see that they just appear. I don't see them coming from somewhere, they just pop up. Sometimes they pop up because of the environment. For example I see someone and think "oh god not him again". Sometimes let's say Im doing something on my computer and ...