Hi Sat Seeker :) you seem pretty clear , lol ! You even answered your own question that you asked of Ingen . WHAT believes it is "not done" ? What benefits from not being "done" ? Read this last sentance several times. What is noticed ?

No ,it's not your feelings, it's your opinion. You don't believe you can find it, because you continue to attach false expectations to what Awakening is. And because it is not what you want it to be , you believe you can't get it or find it, inspite of the fact that there are a number of times in ...

Please explain what finds this "work" tiring and why ? Maybe you're not cut out for this if you're unwilling to continue look ? Especially if it's not the big "bang" you thought it would be or that your perceived suffering would not instantly disappear ??

These are honest questions that require an ...

Reread the whole thread and it will become obvious to you those moments you were , "floating free". Tell me what you notice please. Describe for me the dynamics of how that occurred. Was there a Vlad anywhere in those moments ? Why not ?

I hope you used the time since our last contact to really ...

Hey Vladi, come up with anything yet ?

Yes you do. Sit on it awhile.

"but my feeling is still i am missing something.,I don't know if that's just a belief or truth"

The big question is...are you willing to NOT know ? To float free ,release ALL percieved control ,and just BE in the direct experience of NOW ?

What comes up for you with that question ? Be honest.

The feeling that you're missing something is still attached to the thought and expectation of some grandiose experience you thought Awakening would be. Is that reality or a belief ?
This is much the same as believing in Santa or the Easter bunny. When you believed in them ,they seemed completely ...

On another note, I would like to point out that seeing thru the story will ultimately allow you to release your need for drugs and alcohol as a coping mechanism. It is a more powerful tool than you know. ; ))

Lol ! First things first;
Seeing thru IS a pretty significant thing ; )) you must first be able to accept that it's ALL a story to let it go.
Second, a silent mind is an ultimate result of systematic release of the energy in the story as it is seen thru. So it does come to that.
Third the story ...

"reality is not a problem, story is" // TRUTH. Then let go of the story. The way out of suffering is simply to surrender.


"I understand it all, but don't have it from experience. I can see the story and when I catch it spinning the tale , I can detach from it and it stops"//

THAT IS the ...

Good work.

Ok, let's look and NO you are not wasting my time. That's YOUR issue, NOT mine ; ))

The, "knowing that I'm here" , is that an assumption or REALITY ? If there was an I that really was there, why can't it also control the thoughts ? Or does the thought appear first and then the mind ...

Not what I was looking for but I'll TAKE it,lol ! The key word in your answer is , REALITY. If that is REALITY, what is everything else ?

Is there an "I" anywhere in the direct experience of REALITY ? Does ,what is looking out , need an "I" to see ? Can you find it ?

Good work ; ) take your time ...

Look at( my ) 2posts from the 28th. If you are clear, answer them to the best of your ability. Take your time and let it all hang out, lol, ok ?

But there are few guidelines, stipulations.

1) no drugs
2) no alcohol
3) honesty...no bullshit
4) openness
5) do not read or participate in newage,spiritual ,self help or dualism information
6) answering everyday or ...no deal. You've taken enough time off for the duration.

If that's exceptable ...