If you think you can take the TRUTH, start here !

[Microcosmix]

"but my feeling is still i am missing something.,I don't know if that's just a belief or truth"

The big question is...are you willing to NOT know ? To float free ,release ALL percieved control ,and just BE in the direct experience of NOW ?

What comes up for you with that question ? Be honest.

How do I do that.. thats honest, I dont know how to let go, float free. :/

[Rita Friedman]

Yes you do. Sit on it awhile.

[Rita Friedman]

Hey Vladi, come up with anything yet ?

[Rita Friedman]

Reread the whole thread and it will become obvious to you those moments you were , "floating free". Tell me what you notice please. Describe for me the dynamics of how that occurred. Was there a Vlad anywhere in those moments ? Why not ?

I hope you used the time since our last contact to really reflect. Don't quit. Love ,Rita

[Microcosmix]

Hi Rita, no ive been doing some other things. I havent had the energy at al for looking, did it so much last few weeks im tired of it.

I will rest a few more days then reread the thread..I writa what i experience.

Have a nice day <3

[Rita Friedman]

Please explain what finds this "work" tiring and why ? Maybe you're not cut out for this if you're unwilling to continue look ? Especially if it's not the big "bang" you thought it would be or that your perceived suffering would not instantly disappear ??

These are honest questions that require an honest answer, don't you think ?

You asked if I had the patience to work with you, I'm still here. Perhaps you should have asked yourself the same question regarding doing the "work" ? Just a thought.

Love Rita

[Microcosmix]

Please explain what finds this "work" tiring and why ? Maybe you're not cut out for this if you're unwilling to continue look ? Especially if it's not the big "bang" you thought it would be or that your perceived suffering would not instantly disappear ??

These are honest questions that require an honest answer, don't you think ?

Its just my feelings, i dont feel inspired to look, mostly i think its becuse i cant find anything, I just go in circles.
My mind just loops the same questions about looking and its tiring. I just needed a break from it.

I dont know if im cut out, how can one know this?

Im still here so i havent really quit, just havent focused on it for a while. I will reread the thread and come back with what I find.

[Rita Friedman]

No ,it's not your feelings, it's your opinion. You don't believe you can find it, because you continue to attach false expectations to what Awakening is. And because it is not what you want it to be , you believe you can't get it or find it, inspite of the fact that there are a number of times in this thread where you were there. You lost it because your mind came in and attached your opinions to it.

THAT which you are has always been there. It waits for your defenses and thought projections to drop so you can know what you have always known.

Answer the questions I asked above and above that and we will see if you are just blowing smoke or if you have staying power ; ))