you know what Dan? I feel you're losing your time with this thread. You're busy with others who are moving up... You're a pragmatic man and I understand it's a good thing on this forum but I still don't have your background of 35 years of meditation, following a GURU, having "no-self experiences ...

you're not following what I say?
that's gonna help me.
Anyway...

ok I'll do that for the quote.


NEVER existed.
"I" is a thought.

Bottom line------- Is the fact of no self clearly seen, not understood but directly seen, like a cup on the table? Can you confirm, "There is no I, only what is." ?


Yes. Clearly seen. The understand part is unfolding slowly with the rest that is showed to me. Don't know if it makes sense. so if I ...

Not yet. (confirming There is no I, only what is) but it feels more and more the "reality" to me, it unfolds as is, very easily but slowly .

The "I feel that is home" ... sense of my real me, discovering "i" is a thought - then where am I?. I AM, THAT, as home. does not sense that I have to go ...

As per the "Energy" or Beingness I feel...

(samething, just typing out loud to follow my own treasure chase because I'll get confused if I just keep that on paper. you don't have to answer. it helps me to follow the road, to give a sense to all of this because just few words, don't help. )

So far ...

(speaking out loud. IF I'm way out of track let me know - again, not saying it's the TRUTH but what comes up, right now as what I FEEL (it's my way also to see things).)

that's why there is no-self / no separation possible, a thought cannot experience another thought. Cannot be an experienCER ...

Good, not the body or thoughts, your sure about this?
yes.

OK, but you feel like an "energy", right? Find out if that is true, is that really YOU.
so far it feels like it. No spatial location, no specific place. JUST IS.


..."what is that?" ...
Alive, nothing else is there, wherever I look open ...

Tuesday am...
will come back when I have something new.

simplify? didn't have the feeling I was interpreting but saying how it felt - yet still not sure as it's all new.

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no, not the body.
no, not a thought - not thoughts.
A non-form of BEING (energy) looking at the thought of "i" acting, speaking, typing. no form. don't see one.

(the way I do it, is, I print your answers, I work with them by writing what comes up - questions/answers - on a piece of paper and I come back typing them. then I'm sure I go with what shows up and not the mind. is it how it's supposed be done? let me know if ever...)

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I have this EXCITEMENT ...

gosh.. sure.. yes the I controlling the barbie is false ! ( I read my posts AFTER I wrote them :) )!!!

because the Barbie = "I" thought. the I controlling the barbie (thought) is the equivalent of JO.

is it clear for everyone? :))))))

Can I choose my KEN tho? :) this one is a bit "too plastic ...

did I write not a robot? but I prefer Barbie :) cuter...

That said, I was asking again.. again.. "WHAT AM I ? " obviously now, the I / Jo persona are not as important - well, still feel as, not going to tell the opposite but I sense an opening to something bigger to come. is it clear? not sure ...

So if "I" is a thought - as I saw and felt it as is, then there is no separation possible because... well, and it took me few minutes to swallow the idea, I DON'T EXIST. ROBOT ! Automatic commands, always. Well oiled but still, commands.

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That said, I'm still looking at "what am I and where am ...

"I" 'm thinking I had a glimpse earlier... when I typed in CAPS 2 posts prior, I SAW / FELT (my heart tilted) the thought of I. I saw it while I read my post (to see that again.. I typed too fast at some places and missed letters or put it wrong.) it clicked when I read "as long as I keep them ALIVE ...

Can a thought answer to another thought? not a pile of thoughts, one after one.. I'm talking about the "I" who is the KING in place, answering to other questions like it would be ME as real ?