Hi Elad,
Nice to hear back from you. I agree with your suggestion.
The issue is that I get very easily distracted, caught in thought loops.
For some reason, there is always an evaluation going on.
I feel like I am constantly in this labeling business, like this is a sensation, this is a thought ...

Dear Elad,
I am sorry for not replying for a very long time.
I didn't log in here and I didn't get an email when you checked on me.
I recently moved and there was a lot to do in connection with that, but aside from that, I have a feeling of stuckness.
I haven't had any new insights and as I am ...

Hi Elad,
In sharing my process below, I think I will be answering some of your questions you posed to me.
Lately, I have been practicing self inquiry. The questions arise organically and asking" Who am I " has never really worked for me.
Lately, I have been inquiring about boundaries between what ...

Dear Elad,
Today I went back and read all our conversations again from the beginning.
I recognize a repeating pattern of clear seeing in the moment and the expectation that this should be a constant recognition.
Again, this is recognized as just thoughts arising, even the expectation is just a ...

Hi Elad,

Just stay with this sentence for a while repeat it pay attention to whatever happens and report!

This is clear when I am still and focused on inquiry, but in every day life there is not this understanding continously present that, oh this is just a reaction or a contraction in the body ...

Dear Elad,

For a change you are receiving a response from me right away.
Yes, you put it perfectly in words what I was trying to say.
I am just coming from a five day online retreat and what I have learned is that the trap is truly buying into thoughts.
When the mind leaves the present moment and ...

Hi Elad,

For the next day or days just be curious about this strong feeling of a decision maker. When does it come up? How exactly is it experienced?

What I have noticed is that in the moment the feeling of being a decision maker doesn't come up as frequently.
The body gets up, teeth get ...

Response to the remaining questions:

Can you find anywhere where Kathy autonomously intervenes into life, choosing something that is not the product of all the elements; that is not a part of the overall flow?
No. It's interesting how the mind puts continuity together, when there truly isn't ...

Hi Elad,
Here are the answers to the questions:

As for "what makes things work", could any answer be more then a story?
Yes, this is obvious, something is perceived and the mind creates stories about it or claims ownership.

In direct experience, does reality/the mystery explain itself?
No. It ...

Hi dear Elad,

Thank you very much for checking on me.
I previously had written a reply to the questions and during the preview, I must have made a mistake by clicking on the wrong button. By trying to make corrections and then trying to preview those corrections again, I lost everything in the ...

Hi dear Elad,
I looked at the questions and some discomfort arose here that I am not able to answer them truthfully.
When it's asking when there was a moment when clarity clicked, I can't answer that, because I can't recall a specific moment in time where I feel something hit me on the head and I ...

Hi dear Elad,

I apologize for this very late reply.
What has become clear here is that we have exhausted all intellectual or rather conceptual routes, with the help of your guidance and the exercises you have given me.
The more "I" look in pure experience, the more it becomes clear that thoughts ...

Dear Elad,
For some reason I didn't receive the email that you had replied to my post.
Since you always reply so promptly, worry came up.
Finally today, I wanted to make sure that I actually had submitted my reply, when I noticed that you had already posted your answer.

Regarding the grief, it is ...

Hi Elad,

Thank you very much for your patience with me.

When I read the last sentence you posted to contemplate, a lot of deep grief came up to the surface.
I started crying and I don't know why?
The statement absolutely rang true and I don't know, if the separate self is grieving the fact that ...

Hi Elad,

Regarding the following questions:

Does the sense of self have a location?
Does the sense of self have a shape or a size?
Does the sense of self say or communicate anything?
If the answer is yes, how does the sense do this exactly?
Does the sense of self have any characteristics or ...