Dear Lubo,

As always sorry for the late reply and thank you for being so helpful and patient.
I read your email many times.
It sounds so good when I read it, that's why I read it so much hahaha but arrgh I am not seeing it clearly and feel discouraged. It feels more like hell than freedom ...

Dear Lubo,

I've been sitting with your email. Sorry for taking so long...

I am not sure about this presence: is it just me imagining with my eyes a spaciousness? This noticing feels full and heavy. Everything feels contained in it...It seems boundless if I look for the edges.

also it is just this ...

Dear Lubo,

I have read your email many times:)
Thank you for taking the time to chat with me.

It is still difficult to realize this is all a dream. The space of alertness is there yet it doesn't feel like me. you know?

I will sit with it some more. How did it happen for you?

Dear Lubo,

Still digesting what you wrote...
Thank you for your patience:)

Beautiful!
Identification—notice that only *this* "stands in the way" of wholeness being whole, right now, in this very moment?

Look around you—"That" which notices is divine, and what is noticed is divine.

I think I ...

Dear Lubo,

So:
Right now, can you notice—
Is there a personal aliveness?

How do I know it's personal? it must be neutral I think. doesn't personal appear in consciousness?

Neutral to my mind feels like a nice idea of peace and quiet from the chaos of identification. But even though this sense ...

Dear Lubo,

Thank you for your support. I have been sitting with your last words, very helpful!

Lately I've been feeling very much in my head and thoughts, spinning and feeling frustrated. And not spending very much time in quiet. Thinking a lot instead!!

Also I sometimes I notice an "alive ...

Dear Lubo,

So I have been sitting with this for a bit:

Notice both the **freedom** and the **habit** of trying to find what you are.
That’s the trap. :)

Yes that is the trap!!! that's it exactly. Uggh!!! the habit of trying to find what I am is so ingrained and noticing the freedom is so fuzzy ...

Dear Lubo,

I have been reflecting on your last questions. Still sick with the flu. Hope you are well and thank you for your patience!

With eyes closed, without imagining what you are—no body, human form, thoughts, images, or ideas—*“look”* at you. Not at what is found, but at you.

Where is the ...

Hi Lubo,

I am finally back home after the week long drive home and can be back online regularly. Hope it didn’t complicate things for you.

Look at the body as empty can, nobody's can. to see that there is only NOW and you are Vast, God notice that nobody's body is moved by nobody's consciousness ...

Dear Lubo,

Thank you for your clarification.
I understand what you mean by projection.

I am still thinking about what you said about the body.
The body identification confuses me a lot still. I know we are talking about direct experience but it still feels like me!!

Also l wanted to let you ...

Hi Lubo,

I was out last night and didn't get a chance to respond.

the last thing you said:
My seeing is that fear is just a projection and shame cover that with " Don't look at the fear - Try to fix something on the outside so that fear doesn't arise.


I feel there is lot there to unpack. Fear ...

Dear Lubo,

I have been reflecting today on this: the fear as energy and what you mean with the example of the fairy tale..

So at first I was thinking well I always had a lot of fear and anxiety since always but the more I reflect the more I get a sense of the excitement you are talking about ...

Hi Lubo,

Thank you so much for your email :)

Ok so..
what comes up is : yes!! wanting the relief from acceptance, the end of all the stories AND also at the same time feeling in the dark, longing for this to be seen fully. lots of doubts and nothing to do, nowhere to go uggh. seeking is not happy ...

Hi Marius,

Thank you for your email! Sounds good, yes I am ready!

1. I checked the documents

2. I am actually away for a few weeks but I have reception here for another week, then off the grid for a week then back home.

3. How do you believe life will change if enlightenment is realized?
How do ...

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
I understand there is no I. The I or sense of self is a collection of thoughts claiming every experience, creating a story. I had a glimpse a long time ago but it has long gone. I understand this ...