It seems obvious that it is the guilt and shame that is permanently present subconsciously as the "I am no good" story. It is the guilt and shame that I don't want to look at. I wrote a huge list of events from my life where I felt guilt or shame. It went back in time to my early childhood. To ...

Thank you, vince. This is what is happening here: feelings come and go so quickly I hardly have time to look at the label. A sensation arises in the stomack area, and tge eyes are full of tears. The label says "sadness", but there is no story attached. It is not a reaction to a conscious thought, it ...

Hi Henri

I think it is actually time to end this thread. I would like to thank you for your help and your guidance. I am very grateful to you.

avva

Has there been a clear shift where you saw that there is no inherent self?

Is there a sense of freedom compared to before seeing this?

I would like to give you a little background first.
7 years ago I read Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, which fundamentally changed my way of thinking. I ...

Yes, I have watched those videos, thank you.
Do you think I can 'graduate' now from LU?
Is this flip-flopping true? Can you really go back and forth?
I guess I was expecting a solid knowing of some kind.

What is noticed is that identifying with the thinker/speaker is still there. The perceiver and the doer are obviously not there. The thinker is the same as the speaker – it feels. When the thoughts appear in the mind, there is a sensation in the mouth, as if the thought-words were somehow formed ...

How do I get out of the belief and into direct realisation? I look and look and look again. Perhaps I am not doing the looking well.

I would like to continue with you, please, if you don't mind.

I would like to continue my thread, please.
If Henri is not available, then with another guide.
Thank you.

Okay. Let's pause this conversation.
Thank you, Henri, for your guidance.

When avva’s parents died two years ago, she went into a depression. For a year she took antidepressants. She started reading books about positive thinking, forgiveness, and unconditional acceptance. She started practising these and she could stop taking pills. She was really happy for about 8 months ...

Hi Henri
It’s been a very emotional few days. What a mistake to think that it can be stopped for a week. There is this strong unpleasant feeling in the stomach area most of the time. It doesn’t have a label. It comes when the thoughts about not understanding anything appear. It could be called ...

All right. I will take a week break. Thank you.

I feel burnt out. Tired. Exhausted. Sad. Disappointed. Irritable. Ready to give up. What is there to do? How do you see this?

Even when thoughts suck in attention, is it clear that they are not referring to anyone/anything?
I would like to say yes, but no. They still refer to me, just as usual. Everything is the same. I can’t see any realisation or recognition of any kind.

The only thing that is different now is that I ...