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by Marz
Thu Mar 16, 2023 11:24 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,

I like your seeing that there is nothing to talk about, nothing to understand Yes, the talking seems so far away from truth now. Yet, it was also soooooo incredibly valuable and will be forever grateful to all "those non-dualists" posting videos, writing books and pointing.
1) Is there ...
by Marz
Mon Mar 13, 2023 9:18 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,

Notice the sensations, what is gong on? Are there not eatable sensations?
Sensations in the body come and go like everything else: thoughts, sounds, smells, light/colours. In constant flux. They are not happening to anybody. No idea what is going on, hahahaha!! They just are.

Awesome ...
by Marz
Sun Mar 12, 2023 1:14 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,
I’m back. And through!! Pop the champagne 😊 The story goes like this:
During the evening meditation on day 6, I realised its futile. I’ll never get this. Nobody to get it. The intention was to let you know on my return that I quit with this process. I’m done. Intense sadness followed ...
by Marz
Wed Mar 01, 2023 12:42 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,
There is quite a bit of anxiety coming up today while getting ready for the upcoming 10-day retreat. Marz is feeling a bit solid, even though, when I look, I can’t find the person who is anxious. There is only anxiety…and lots of thoughts about what to remember to pack.
I will get back to ...
by Marz
Sun Feb 26, 2023 9:47 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,

To brake trough, check if there is a you thinking then notice What are you doing precisely to think?
There is no “me” that is doing the thinking. Thoughts just appear. There is an assumption that thoughts must be produced by a somebody. However, there is no person “doing anything ...
by Marz
Wed Feb 22, 2023 10:12 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,
You are pointing to something that I just seem to miss! The “me” is hoping to GET THIS before going on another retreat (a 10-day silent retreat booked, starting 1 March). I can't find proof that there is anyboy here who can make any seeing happen though. Yet, something is trying so damn ...
by Marz
Mon Feb 20, 2023 9:08 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,
I’m not so sure about the nearness of the gate, but hey, you’re the expert! 😉
and notice the image of a self me.
Then notice is this image known by others? No, this image can’t be known by others. It is only known by me.
By reality around, check? No. The image is not known by anything ...
by Marz
Sat Feb 18, 2023 6:50 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,

Sure, will do thanks! I'll also try to reply more regularly.

yes, exactly, notice is there a character without identification with shame, guilt...?
The assumption of a character is constantly there, unless I’m aware of thoughts and can see them for what they are (for instance while ...
by Marz
Tue Feb 14, 2023 6:07 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,

The character-me so desparately wants to get this. To not disappoint you. To get validation. Yet, intellectually I know the character-me can't "get" anything. It does not exist!

Ok. let's see more practical level. What is this in the space, Look around:
- is it made by separate things ...
by Marz
Sat Feb 11, 2023 5:43 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,

Thanks for your perseverance!

Wonderful, so the body is not ashamed and guilty for anything? Body/women is absolutely innocent and pure .
What is to find that? Right here in direct experience, the body just is, yes. There are skin, nails, hair, arms, hands, legs. It can’t be guilty or ...
by Marz
Thu Feb 09, 2023 10:16 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,
Apologies for the delay in getting back to you. Experiencing lots of resistance and finding distractions. Enough of that now and back to looking at what is real!
You notice during the wondering "I will never get this" - that everything is happening by itself?
That thought is also just ...
by Marz
Mon Feb 06, 2023 1:12 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hiya,

Until now all attention and focus is on this weight - shame, guilt, self-story.
Now let's focus on what is here?
Here, there is hearing (husband busy in kitchen-noises, birds outside-sounds, music-on-radio), feeling (air on skin, pressure of sitting, vibratory, flowy sensations in body ...
by Marz
Sat Feb 04, 2023 10:59 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,

Let's check is there anybody which is somewhere, inherent self?
this is obvious, just notice in the pocket, in the wallet, behind the eyes and write is there something which is self? Nope! Its so obvious when looking. No self anywhere.
Then notice the protective mechanisms which ...
by Marz
Fri Feb 03, 2023 12:58 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Thank you Lubo, what an up-and-down-rollercoaster ride (melted wax ceilings included). And this ride aint over yet...

Yes, notice the trick - Lubo's face, Lubo's voice, memory about Lubo - but is there something exactly which Lubo is? Is there an entity behind the face, behind the voice? or Lubo ...
by Marz
Tue Jan 31, 2023 12:19 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!
Replies: 54
Views: 2781

Re: Urgh! This constant dissatisfaction will be the end of me!

Hi Lubo,
Thanks for these questions. Definitely some doubt that arise: “can it be this simple?” “but, what about others' experiences that I’ve read/heard about….?” etc. Off course: ALL THOUGHTS, but more looking and deepening feels like what is needed. So here goes!
...and what Lubo you point ...

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