Oh thank you for telling me! Sorry I've just seen the message
Unfortunately I don't think I can make it tomorrow. I have a big exam on friday and still have a lot to study :/
Love,
Mary

Hey Luchana,
I am testing this questions. I want to be sure the "yes" is big and fat. :)
I'll get back in the next few days.
Much love,
Mary

Hi Luchana :)
It is getting clearer.

And exactly - can a thought identify?
What can a thought do?
No, it can't. A thought can simply appear and disappear.

What is here then?
Everything else is still here. The visual field, body sensations, sounds, thoughts (even about a me)... but no me ...

Hi Luchana,
Once the illusion of a separate self is seen trough this doesn't mean that we are going to be at peace undisturbed by any emotion. Identification can happen and mostly like will happen and again - more looking is needed :-)
Yes i can see this...

Is there an expectation hiding that ...

Hello Luchana,
As we already spoke, in the last couple of weeks a wave of resistance arose and I'm not sure if I should give attention to that or just carry on with the exploration now that I feel ready to continue.
The thing is that is seems pointless to investigate on something that is not here ...

Hi Luchana :)

Let's look closely who or what feels stuck here?
Haha! Right…there is only the thought about me being stuck :) But no stuck me anywhere
Is there something REAL out of a thought about something?
No. Some thoughts can point to what is real but their content is never real…
And ...

Hello Luchana,

I had written this long post explaining why I had struggle with expectations on this realization once again, and then laughed at it realizing it's just usual crap. HAha I guess expectations will go on just as they want to.
:) Sorry it took so long to reply anyway.

I meditated for ...

Hello Luchana,

Next time when you feel it - look for the place from which is it coming.
Can a spot from where restlessness flowing be found?
I usually feel it in the the chest, a sort of energy that accompanies some narration on why things are not ok as they are.

Thank you for sharing the ...

Hello Luchana :)

It took me a while for this one... I encountered some resistance these days, I felt restless and a little anxious trying to grasp something that was eluding me. A lot of the attention was in the mind space and the constant flow of thoughts that were largely believed and perceived ...

Hello dear Luchana :-)

With eyes open, can you confirm that what is experienced is 'what can be seen' as I mentioned?
Yes

Is there anything else in 'seeing' other than 'what can be seen'?
No, nothing else

Can what is witnessing 'what can be seen' be found?
No it can't. Without going into ...

Hello :-)

1) With eyes closed, can you confirm that what is experienced is 'blackness' as I mentioned?
Yes
2) Is there anything else in 'seeing' other than 'blackness'
No in seeing only blackness is experienced
3) Can what is witnessing the blackness be found?
No!
4) Can a pair of eyes, an ...

Hi Luchana,
I had such a lovely time walking in nature this afternoon. I was filled with wonder :)


Is the main character, Mary, has any power over thoughts? Over sensations? Over sounds? Or colours and shapes around?
Or everything just happen effortlessly, including thoughts about “ Mary ...

What I would suggest is when you have a free time to go for a walk somewhere in nature. A small park nearby is a good option also. Walk for a while, sit somewhere and look arround. Trees, flowers, insects, birds, people's chatters, children's playing, sensations in the body, thoughts including the ...

Hi Luchana,
Sorry for the late reply :)

Notice - is there is an idea, a belief that there should be seeing "no-self"?
Is it possible to see something which doesn't exist?
Yes there is that idea ahah it doesn't really make sense to see something that doesn't exists. But as we were saying the mind ...

Hey Luchana,
I tried to evoke the resistance even if today there was actually more calmness.

Why are you here?
What are you protecting me from?
What may happen if I don't resist?
Asking these questions, thoughts came up about fearing the failure of not actually seeing no self. Like if the ...