Yeah, all the wow or whatever good feelings, right? We'd love them to be around the whole time. Well, the new overview becomes the new normal, right?

Just wanted to apologize for going awol, I should probably tell you if I need to take time to let things settle for a bit.

Yes, it was weirdly ...

So what do you think: Are you 100% sure now that you have seen that self isn't an entity, but a wonderful character in an interesting story?


Yeah, 100% sure. Just like I wrote before, I guess it was a bit anti-climactic haha. I was talking to my friend about how I accept that there's no one ...

Can it be known how tall the body is?
No. With eyes closed no.

Does the body have a weight or volume?
No

In the actual experience does the body have a shape or a form?
None at all. Just sense inputs. There are mental images of it though, thoughts painting a portrait.

Is there a boundary ...

Could you write something to all four of them, decision, intention, free will, choice and control?

When an event happens, say I smoke a cigarette, thoughts fill inbetween the cracks and make me believe that I decided to do that. Simultaneously, it gives a cause and effect, a why, a reason, and ...

What was the last bit that pushed you over; made you look?

I really don't remember. It just happened. There are thoughts that pop up to give reasons to it but they aren't true.

Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you ...

Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

None at all. And there was never any separate entity that chooses to do anything.

Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own ...

How do you feel with the Arthur is not an entity and controler of his life right now?

I can honestly feel love here. I kept coming back to this question, making sure I'm not rushing it, making sure I'm actually feel it. And everytime I read the question, there's joy and a sense of coziness? Like ...

Does Arthur decide what he will do in the future?
Does he know it?
Or will just happen what happens and thoughts explain while going?

It will just happen and thoughts fill the blanks in between to make sense of it, fashioning answers as to why he's there and how he went there. Furthermore ...

I've been on this site called blahtherapy, listening to people's problems. Observed the actions, and the sensations that came with it. From helping people and lightening their load, there's a sense of purpose, of fulfillment. Where does that come from? I don't know. Maybe because I've always wanted ...

Honestly, now that I've started this investigation, they're just experiences now. No good or bad, just was. I can still look back
and feel love or feel hate, but there's a sense of peace that comes with it as well.

Beliefs and thoughts say whether something is good or bad. They come from parents ...

Sat with the anger for a bit. The reason for it is due to seeing responsibility as some noble quality? People owning up to their actions, their faults, their flaws, and then finding solutions to at the very least dull the blows is a good quality to have. So when there's no responsibility ...

Are thougths really linked to each other or are there just thoughts 'telling' it is so? Thougths are sneaky little fellas.
Go have a look. If there is a link you should be able to find it.

Things got kind of weird. I sat and observed. I was looking at my hands, unlabeled. Felt nauseating. You're ...

Here the question would be does one thought know of the other, are thoughts connected in some way?
Have a look.

Yes. Thoughts seem to act as nodes or gears of a clock. Whenever I get deep in thought, they link from one thought to another. I guess it's why it's so easy to get lost in them cause ...

What about the clearing away of beliefs, that creates freedom, a chance to allow life to flow freely?
Does that make sense for you?

Yes! That's what I was trying to get at. The clearing away of beliefs. But isn't the only reason for the beliefs to be uprooted is due to the knowledge imparted ...

Is emptyness and calm worrying or something you are not so used to?


There's fear there now that you bring it up. Fear that maybe I'm not doing enough. Traced it back, sat with it, didn't take me long. Concluded that it stems from my parents always wanting me to be active, to always be doing ...