1. New box happens
2. The box may become self aware
3. If so, Confusion - sense of a self may come in
4. Repeats for however long

Or
1. New box happens
2. The box may become self aware
3. Loops for however long

Its like theres infinite boxes

And this is the box that defines experience for my being.

And in this box, there are subsets of other micro boxes. Theres the box of smell and of touch and of taste and of thought and of emotion and of hearing and of seeing. And sometimes these boxes fire at the same ...

In the past you tried to reach some elevated state. You tried to do awareness.
But here’s the trap: you’re still flirting with the idea that “keeping awareness up” is something you have to do . You think this is a skill or practice you could pick up again. You think there’s a choice.


Not in ...

Hi Vince, we can keep doing this.

It's funny actually, maybe a couple months ago I was going through a phase where I distinctly noticed that thoughts were coming in just like anything else.

I haven't desired or tried doing any of this in years now, and it spontaneously just happened on its own. I ...

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1. When I was able to stay with a sensation, no matter where it originated, it made me experience pleasant sensations- the sane type of physical pleasantness as in a mild state of arousal.

It's kind of hard to differentiate whether what I also felt was an emotion, but I ...

Hi vince, im back. Would prob have to start over at just the most basic level with you or someone else.

Id really love to do the conversation without a spiritual scope this time, as if the guider is just talking to a construction worker off the street. That would be more relatable at this time with ...

Is this another way of saying that the SENSE of self occurs and is SEEN to be happening but no identification accompanies it?
Is this something that you experience?

At the moment, there is still identification with it in the meta-awareness state. But when I get into the no meta-awareness state, I ...

Basically this is where I'm at:

There's two modes of living, you're always in 1 of them only, and they are basically like states if you will:
1. No meta-awareness in present experience
2. Meta-awareness in present experience

What I mean by this:
When there is this "meta-awareness", there is this ...

Hey vince. I haven't focused or pursued any of this stuff in quite some time, but I just started meditating again yesterday or 2 nights ago.

Anyways, I've also started woodworking a little bit ago with hand tools only. You can watch someone hand saw and try to replicate it, but it's nearly ...

Hey vince,

All in all, havent noticed anything else since then. My new job is pretty demanding and we have some long days where Im incredibly tired by the time I get home lol, so I havent had much of a chance to tune in at all. Im thinking once I start to get good at this line of work, Ill be able ...

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On a sidenote Id also like to mention how up until this point, those times where there was just tranquility of awareness, and no agitation, were so not looked at. Ironically, it is periods like this where usually there was no mindfulness of this occuring, yet these are the most tranquil ...

Hey vince. Im pretty excited now since I can tell Im actually making progress, before this I was really stalling. You know what i mean when i say this... lol

Now I am starting to see experientially the interaction between 1. Awareness, 2. Craving/Aversion, and 3. Suffering/Agitation (whatever you ...

Hey vince, its been some time since getting back to you. I was kind of stalling out and going through a period of not looking, but have since gotten back on the trend for the past few days.

A couple days ago I had this idea to observe as if I was like a newborn baby and has no reference point as to ...

Hey vince,

Is it unusual to go some time without needing this method? Its weird, but sometimes I find entire days go by where nothing is really unpleasant for me to do this on lol

Something Ive also been noticing through doing the recognition, is how, everything going on just is thrown on my plate ...

Hey vince,

His opinion of you isn't actually about you. It's his opinion. (none of your business)
As soon as you engage with him in this, it becomes a pissing match. Both defending their selves.

So basically, just keep focusing on the recognition? Im assuming its not about trying to not engage ...