Another very brief but noteworthy experience of beauty this afternoon.
Excellent!
Have you considered that the day you eventually mark on the calendar as the day you “woke up” may simply be the day it became unmistakably clear that this had always been so—that no separate self had ever been ...

But I want it to! Did you embrace the wanting? (not what you wanted, but the experience of desire)

feeling lethargic, apathetic, and like life is painful and burdensome,
The experience is different if you don't resist it.

and if I’d come up with something to write about, that would’ve kept me ...

That's where I am today. Then that’s where you are—and that is enough. You don’t owe me a question, an insight or something interesting to respond to.

“This is all THIS” isn’t supposed to make pain feel better. If it becomes “Knowing this should help,” it has turned into another demand upon an ...

did a lot of crying, which felt like hope for homecoming after being away for much too long — a sense that maybe I really can be at home here in this world. (Typing that last bit made me start sobbing again.)
Tears here too. Beautiful.

K returned at dusk to the home she had never truly left ...

No, I wasn’t asking for a theoretical “absolute” account. Spelling it out occasionally may loosen assumptions, but once it becomes tedious, stop. Replacing the self-story with an elaborate conditions-story is still story.

Purposeful action, intention and deliberation plainly happen. The question is ...

It seems that one of the main reasons I keep chattering to myself in my head a lot of the time is that I forget that I’d prefer not to. As soon as I notice I’m chattering away, I go, “Oh yeah,” and it drops, and I return attention to sense perceptions (at least momentarily, before the chatter ...

That email feels significant—not because it repairs the whole relationship, but because affection found expression without waiting for the relationship to become different.

Notice how mind locates “home” in the past: the intact family, the first house, the child before intense selfing. Yet those ...

The metaphor of coming home is a powerful one for me (not any specific image of home from K's biography but just the general, archetypal idea). A song I love and find very moving is Peter Gabriel’s “Solsbury Hill,” in which a line from the refrain is “Grab your things, I’ve come to take you home ...

OH, how interesting. Your brain shouts out "What do I do?" - i tell you what to do, and response is "no" then "Tell me what to do"
So a conclusion here is that the 'doing' is conditional.
The brain wants to do only what it thinks will work? or what is easy? or doesn't really want something to do ...

Gonna rewatch the Angelo video about deconstructing the thought “I am not awake,” pausing the video periodically to consider the questions/pointers . . .
i want to gently give you a hug and whisper to you that "you are your own best authority". ..but that authority isn't about judgement. If we ...

“It hit me in the gut.” = a sudden realization
“I have a gut feeling.” = intuition
“Belly laugh.” = an expression of unrestrained pleasure

That these occurred to you suggests that there may be 'value' in seeing how they 'fit' for you...
Again using 'stream of consciousness', what comes to mind ...

whom you were trying to tell a week or two ago that meditation is of no use. had a defensive response to you saying this. Sorry I said it clumsily! I really did mean this: This happens often. In my reply (about a defensive response), there was no rebuke. i did not take offence at your comment. In ...

I’ve wondered whether the LU inquiry process tends to work better for folks who have a meditation practice or have had one in the past — anything that involves noticing and letting go of thoughts.
I've had both so i couldn't say. There are so many meditation techniques. i'm more inclined to say ...

I suppose it’s that staying alert for unpleasantness, in order to see what’s there before it’s labeled suffering, is probably a good way to make it less likely to get labeled suffering.
It also 'objectifies' the experience so that it's seen in the context of conditions. ..but don't worry about ...

And then I think of Sylvia Boorstein’s playful but serious “Third-and-a-Half Noble Truth”: that short of the cessation of suffering, suffering can become more manageable. (She’s a Vipassana teacher. This is in her book It’s Easier Than You Think.) And, OK, that’s still pretty good. And that seems ...