How old do you feel when you have this thought?
I feel about 3 years old.

What is going on in your body when you have this thought?
There's a funny energy, sort of swirly in my head and chest. It feels sort of dense. I want to hang my head. I feel emotional. Quite sad like I want to cry.

How ...

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Hi again. I wanted to add, when I am not in Direct experience there is a sense of, 'Have I done my homework?. Don't want to upset Rowena or she might reject me.'

How does this sense of seeking show up. Please spend a little time contemplating:

What is this sense of seeking?
It's a feeling/emotion a way to make me feel better about myself after suffering from thoughts. It is not being in Direct Experience. It's as if I'm averse to Direct experience ...

Can a controller of attention be found?
No.

Can you control when you clearly see that no separate self can be found and the next minute attention has become entranced by a personal narrative that is taken to belong to an "I".
No. If I can't control thought then how can I NOT, have another ...

Hi Rowena. I’ve been quite stressed again. I intend to post tomorrow. Sorry to be slow.
Lesley

Can you give these sensations your full and undivided attention as you watch them move through your body, even though that may take a while?
Yes I can.

Can you see that there is a part of you that is dedicated to the pursuit of truth and that there is another part that comes from old habitual ...

When you say "I" does there need to be an ownership of that by a separate "someone"?
No.
is there a locatable "you" that is identified with that?
There is not.
Can a "doubt" thought be fully allowed as it is ?
Yes it can.
Can an "I need to know or be sure" thought be fully allowed as it is ...

Hello.
Sorry I am slow responding . I wanted to let you know that I have been overwhelmed with Health and Life admin issues lately and I am trying to pace myself.
I have also lately been caught up in my long time old belief system that I 'need' therapy. I was infact a trained therapist. I stopped ...

What is the memory ‘made of’? What is actually happening in your direct experience?

Just a bunch of pictures /thoughts

Now, think of a flying pink elephant flying across the room, let that image go, and now return to the memory thought.
Without a thought to interpret, what is the actual ...

But is there an actual "I" or a "ME" or a "Self" that can be found?

No

What is it that senses the feeling of me?

It's the focus on emotions, thoughts and beliefs.

Whatever that is, and whatever it senses, are they separate?

No they are all the same.

Where is that which senses or ...

When I use the word, ’I’ it’s referring to the old concepts, philosophies and beliefs, that coloured and filled my life.

How will life change?
I don't think that life will change. It will still be the same life.
Life will not change.

How has life changed since you have been doing this enquiry ...

Where are they coming from and going to?
I've no idea.

Did you do anything to make a particular thought or thoughts appear?
No, nothing.

Could you have done anything to make a different thought appear at that exact moment instead?
No, nothing.

Can you predict your next thought?
No.

Can ...

What is "I" pointing to? Where can "I" actually be found?
What is "myself" referring to? Can "myself" actually be found?
If it is pointing anywhere, where is it pointing?
Is there a separate thinker of thoughts that can have preferences?
Does there need to be an independent chooser or decider in ...

1. Using this metaphor, can you find anywhere where "you" autonomously intervenes into life, choosing something that is not the product of all the elements; that is not a part of the overall flow?
No

2. Now please consider a regular decision made eg; what to wear in the morning, or what to eat ...