Thank you so much for the attention and kindness with that you guided me, Verananda. I'm deeply grateful for the help that you, Canfora and others from LU gave me during this journey. You are all wonderful people.

See you.

Much love,
Nelson

Hi Verananda,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?

No, there is no separate self, and it never existed.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience ...

Hi Verananda,

Thank you so much for the questions, they were right to the point. If you want I can answer them one by one, but I can see how expecting everything to change, was getting in the way of seeing how simple this is.

There is just what is going on. What makes it seems that there is an I ...

Hi Verananda,

Can you find an I in this game? Or just other thoughts that say these thoughts are true ...?
No I, just thoughts, and thoughts about thoughts.

Thoughts and feeling/sensation and again no I inside?
No I.

Is it a fear about something? Thoughts saying "I'm afraid of ...."?
I don ...

Hi Verananda,

Can you find an I/me/self?
In the body or anywhere else?

No, just sounds, images, sensations, smells, tastes and thoughts. No "I" in the middle of it.

Any borders?
please explain a bit what do you exactly mean with this / what is experienced/seen?
what are these "boundaries ...

Hi Verananda,

I'm still investigating. I'm starting to see how this "I" just appears when there is thinking about the past or the future. In the past, for example, when something just heard is being analyzed. In the future, for example, when future scenarios are being analyzed. And, of course, this ...

Hi Verananda,

There is a new perspective isn't it?
Still there is a sense of self, but, at the same time, there is a growing awareness over the nature of reality, especially the nature of thoughts. There is also a growing "easiness" in going through life. Maybe this is it, I don't know.

What ...

Hi Verananda,

I'm stuck...

Sometimes it is clear, and usually is in these times that fear appears. Sometimes, like now, the fog of thoughts is stronger and it is the time of frustration to appears. I was asking myself "what in experience can be frustrated?". Colors, sensations, sounds, smells ...

Hi Verananda,

I'm still investigating this and dealing with this "fear", but some insights have been occurring. It is funny how you can read these things many times, but it doesn't make sense until you see for yourself.

Last days were kind of intense. A lot of thoughts about an "I" confused ...

Hi Verananda,

are you afraid of something or is it more a nameless feeling of fear?
Until now I couldn't identify the origin of this "fear". It is rare, but usually arises when some mechanics of the illusion is seen clearer. For example, when the thinker is seen again and again for what it is, a ...

Hi Verananda,

Thank you so much for all the help that you are giving to me.

no. but you can investigate if there are any solid borders, any seperation between "you and the world".
YOu can investigate this in the same way as you did with the "I" in actual experience.
What do you find?
I'm still ...

Hi Verananda,

investigate this. what makes a thought "true"?
look at some thoughts that you "believe to be true".
without any other thought commenting: its true! or "no its not" or "maybe it could be different ..." etc, is this first "belief-thought" more or other than any other thought?
This ...

Hi Verananda,

Things seem to be getting clearer...

Yes, thats a very imortant insight! So from this peacefull place, can you see what makes this inquiry and other stuff confusing and frustrating?
(Its not about changing it, just seeing what happens!)
Yes, the contents of thoughts. A history ...

Sometimes I also try to understand the implication of these insights, that seems to be quite obvious, but mind goes blank.

Oh.. this trying to understand is just the content of another thought...

This is tricky :)

Best,
Nelson

Hi Verananda,

I will practice for some more days, and then answer your post completely. The exercise that you gave me is amazing.

Yes, thats a very imortant insight! So from this peacefull place, can you see what makes this inquiry and other stuff confusing and frustrating?
(Its not about ...