Dear Canfora,

this is wonderful. Thank you ever so much for the precious time and thoughts you dedicated to this process. I certainly hope to befriend you in the aftercare world (sounds a bit like afterlife).

I have never been on Facebook, and never intended to! Well, yet another new horizon ...

Dear Canfora,


I need to revisit the space opened by that meditation several times a day to work towards acceptance.

This reminds me of something Paul Hedderman's uses to talk about: are you making a renovation project of yourself?

No, no! "Acceptance" wasn't the right word, actually. At least ...

Dear Canfora,

It seems you are identifying with awareness at the time being? Is this awareness you talk about something separate from all the rest?

You were right, ah! There was still that recess in which I imagined a mute-neutral-shapeless viewer. I got really frustrated by that question ...

Dear Canfora,

thank you for this. I've read it yesterday and, as usual, left it all simmering on the back burner for a while.

what would you say is behind decisions, choice and control?


Awareness comes quite late in the process of deciding and choosing. It's like seeing only the tip of the ...

Wow, Canfora, what a beautiful post you sent me.

It was a strong experience to write those answers yesterday, something was happening. (Now, don't ask me how!...)

I would be extremely honoured to become a guide one day. That suggestion truly filled my heart. I am not too busy, and in any case I ...

Dear Canfora,

I've just watched the video, it's quite a striking experiment. It's very helpful, because I think what I've been experiencing is some resistance in accepting what I see, insofar as free will is concerned.

Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control.

Decision: the ...

Dear Canfora,

yes, maybe I'm hammering it a bit! Simply: the question of ethics brings a sense of not having understood HOW it works. But maybe the urge to find out is just another habit that will fall off in time. Or maybe understanding will deepen by continuing to look. Or maybe there is no need ...

Dear Canfora,

Things continue to clarify a bit everyday.

take your time but keep me posted -- I would like to know how you are going.


I will.

I'm still struggling with the question of responsibility and ethics. It is easier to apply our guiding question to single events, but rather difficult ...

Thank you Canfora,

this is really helpful, and actually it fits well with an acknowledgment I had in meditation today. There's not really a choice being made, after all. It's more like competing options appear and a series of subtle (or less subtle) thoughts manifest instantly to give more weight ...

Dear C,

thanks for your reply to my last post, it's very empowering.

Reflecting on the intention/control/will issue, I realise that I have reached a bit of a dead end. I am clear about the the illusion of a separate self holding together an identity; it doesn't exist. But I still struggle with ...

Dear Canfora,

Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control.
What makes things happen?


I can't pretend to know the answer to that. Actually, I found that looking has truly started to deepen when I stopped putting that sort of question between the looking and the seeing. It is ...

Dear Canfora,

Since some things caught my attention I'll ask some questions about them, hope you don't mind.

Sure, ask away! I will miss it when you won't.

What do you mean by the body-mind system? Do you experience yourself has being a mix of body and mind or do you have to think to arrive to ...

Dear Canfora,

In the second question I forgot to mention that the illusion of self also brought the illusion that there would not be any coherence without it. No direction to follow, no steps to trace back, no well defined shell to exist into and to see the world from. Most of the resistance ...

Dear Canfora,


Ah, the big bang theory! It's very common :)
Wonderful that you can see trough it!

Ah ah! Thanks for that.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was
there ever?


No. There was the habit of believing in it and channelling ...

Dear Canfora,

thank you for your reply and for the references to the articles, they sound hugely interesting.

Yes! Let's go through the standard questions. I've been feeling more and more integrated during these last few days. There's no need to look again all the time, it's fluid. Let's see if ...