OK, dropping (or trying to!) all pre-conceived notions, I simply cannot find anything that the term "I" could refer to. There simply isn't anything to be found. Lots of things appear, but no I.

"I" is a concept without any sort of referent in reality. It feels a little weird and mysterious to ...

I have to concede.....yes. The point of seeing past the self illusion, at least as it has been represented in a ton of stuff prior to LU, is some sort of "freedom." But increasingly it seems that that whole expectation is unfounded.

And yet, the site is called "Liberation Unleashed!" Set me ...

Nice Douglas Adams reference!

I guess I am not sure what to do next.

....."only exist as concepts," is what I meant to say in the line about Santa Claus.

It was just a logical response to the question of what would experience any difference if no entity can be found, while trying to steer clear of "I" language. Actually not at all nihilistic. Clearly something exists!

I do not know what I am or what actually is. But to make any sort of nihilistic ...

There wouldn't be anyone or anything to experience any difference.

I meant, "as far as I can tell...." Nice typo in that last posting of mine.

As fat as I can tell at this point, no, it has not made any difference.

Are you looking to find answers or are you trusting the thoughts that pop up about this stuff? If you think you will find the right answers by thinking, you will keep seeking. You already know all the theories around these subjects don't you? And you are trying to make them work for you. You don't ...

Copy that. Will do.

I'm aware of being aware, but I'm not directly aware of being awareness. You might say it's more spiritual baggage. In philosophies like Advaita, seeing through the illusion of the self could be said to be one side of a coin. I realize what I am not (a separate self) AND "directly" "realize" what I ...

That’s very well said. Yes, I am stuck in some expectations. Expectations of some sort of direct knowing, a non-subject/object mode of direct “knowing” of awareness.

OK, here's my attempt to explain what feels still "stuck." Clearly, there's nothing I can point to and say THAT is "me" or "I."

I think one issue is that "self" is so vaguely defined; so even though I haven't yet found anything I can label as "me," it's feels hard to be certain one has definitively ...

Hi,

I still have work to do - working through the labels exercise a few more times - but I didn't want to go too long without posting.

I think you were right when you said if I'm not sure about the illusion, then there are places I haven't looked at, and I think one of those places may be the ...

Thank you. I will try that exercise.