Dear Kay,
Thank you so very much. I'm deeply appreciative for your commitment, generosity, and insightful guidance. I commit to keep LOOKING. If I feel I need a guide again, I shall definitely ask for you!
love
Carolyn

Hi Kay,
This entire post was very helpful in terms of clarification of what the process is about. This paragraph was especially helpful:

LOOKING is not the same as seeking. Seeking is always towards something that is not present, or trying to get away from something that is present. Looking is ...

Hi Kay,
I reflected back, having started this process exactly 6 months ago with my first guide. I can't say I feel any different, really. But nothing's supposed to change, right?
love,
Carolyn

Hi Kay,
I commit to keep LOOKING.
love,
Carolyn

Hi Kay,

AND WHAT WILL BE DIFFERENT? HOW WILL YOU KNOW WHEN YOU HAVE SEEN THIS THROUGH EXPERIENCE?

I feel like we're going in circles here. I would feel an easing of the effort of continuously trying to LOOK and SEE.

love,
Carolyn

Hi Kay,

IS THIS 'GIVING UP' A RESIGNATION, OR IS IT A SEEING THAT THERE IS NO ONE/NO THING THAT COULD POSSIBLY HAVE A PURPOSE? TO HAVE A PURPOSE WOULD MEAN THAT THERE IS SOMEONE/SOMETHING THAT IS LIVING LIFE. CAN YOU FIND THAT SOMEONE/SOMETHING?

I would say that it's partly both.


IF YOU HAVE A ...

Hi Kay,


AND WHAT IS THE EXPECTATION HERE?

I don't think, at this point, that I actually have an expectation around a sense of meaning. I've given up on that.

love,
Carolyn

Hi Kay
So sorry I didn't respond last night. I was helping my husband clean the basement, which is a world separate unto itself, and didn't remember until I had been collapsed in bed for a while.

Your paragraph about the sense of meaning expresses it perfectly. What's going on here? I felt it ...

Hi Kay,

And what exactly is a ‘sense of meaning’? What does that mean…what are you looking for when you refer to wanting a sense of meaning?
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A sense of meaning would be a thought.


What is it exactly that wants a sense of meaning? And what will that actually do and for whom/what ...

Hi Kay,



YES, SO IF YOU IGNORE ALL THOUGHTS AND IMAGES OF A BODY AND OF EARS AND ALL THOUGHTS ABOUT HEARING AND OF INSIDE AND OUTSIDE…..IS THERE SOMEONE HEARING SOUND OR SOUND JUST IS?

Sound just is.


NO, BECAUSE WHAT IS THE AE OF THE ‘INSIDE OF A HOUSE’ AND THE AE OF THE ‘OUTSIDE OF A HOUSE ...

Hi Kay--

AND HOW DOES THAT ACTUALLY FEEL? DESCRIBE TO ME EXACTLY HOW AN INSIDE AND AN OUTSIDE FEELS IN ACTUAL EXPERIENCE?
The inside/outside is a story told by thought. It's also a sensation. And it involves color in terms of the body image.


SO, HOW CAN THERE BE AN INSIDE AND AN OUTSIDE IF THERE ...

Hi Kay,


IS THERE AN OUTSIDE AND AN INSIDE?

It feels as though there is an inside here and an outside there.

IS THERE A DISTANCE BETWEEN THE SOUND AND THE ‘HEARING’ OF THE SOUND?

No, there's not a distance.

ARE THERE TWO THINGS PRESENT? SOUND AND EXPERIENCE?

There is just the sound.

Since ...

Hi Kay,
SO CAN YOU FIND A 'DOER' IN ANY OF THAT?
I can't find a doer. Nor can I control the feeling that there is a doer. I can't control the feeling that I'm still making decisions.

You asked how it was going with breaking everything down into AE. My mind (I know there isn't one, but don't know ...

Hi Kay--

Wow-- this exercise was totally awesome. Very powerful for me. It was the first time I've experienced a pointing "viscerally."

SO, WHEN THE VIEW ON THE RIGHT IS SEEN, DO YOU HAVE THE ‘CHOICE’ NOT TO SEE? I’M NOT ASKING CAN YOU ‘CHOOSE’ TO SEE SOMETHING ELSE LIKE ANOTHER VIEW OR BLACK ...

Hi Kay,
You say you've been through all the aspects of the guidance with me. However, I wouldn't mind revisiting those aspects with you. I shall try to be honest below, though my answers from yesterday still pretty much stand.

HOW WILL LIFE CHANGE?
I might understand that I'm not the doer of ...