Dear Kay,

Thank you so much. So much gratitude and love for your wisdom and patience and guidance.

Love,
Zarina

Dear Kay,


What is the AE of confusion?
No actual experience of confusion…thought + sensation.
What exactly is it that can be confused?
Nothing, in actual experience.
Can the label "confusion" become confused or know anything about confusion?
No.
Can the sensation labelled "confusion ...

Dear Kay,

So how does this realisation 'feel'?
Well, it feels good...and it feels normal. It's like that example of Santa Claus - nothing changes when you know he's not real. I guess what feels "good" is that there isn't this searching for it now, it's just known, it's just there or fact or ...

Dear Kay,

There was no ‘you’ before this exploration started and there is no ‘you’ now, so there aren’t going to be any changes, other than a change in perspective/perception. Whatever changes seemingly appear have nothing do with a 'you'. How can it. LOOK right this moment and find 'you'. We ...

Dear Kay,

It has been slow going on re-reading the thread. I have been reading it and also stopping and doing some of the exercises. Would you prefer that I just read straight through, and then report back? Or is it okay that I am taking it slow and looking along the way?

You have an expectation ...

Dear Kay,

Thank you very much. I hope to do this sometime this evening, and will write back to you again later this evening or tomorrow evening.

STOP everything and go back to noticing actual experience

I have been doing this.

Love,
Zarina

Dear Kay,

I want to respond to your questions before the server goes down for 48 hours. Know that I am also still looking at them.

Has it been clearly seen that there is no separate individual, and never has been?
It is clear when looking. Looking is happening a lot today. Many thoughts seen ...

Dear Kay,

But is there an experience that the now is moving along the line of time?
There is not actual experience of this. There is experience of thought, with the content saying various things about time.

How fast is the present moment actually moving?
There is no actual experience of a ...

Dear Kay,

Did you find a dividing line of any description between sound, thought, sensation etc?
No. Only thought says they are different.

If an image of fishing appeared now and you dropped all thoughts….how would you know it was an image of fishing and how would you know that it referred to ...

Dear Kay,

I also just wanted to check my understanding of AE with you.

Driving to work this morning: saw that there was image + sensation + thought. There was no AE of driving. This was seen for part of the drive, not the whole drive. There was also exploration of "who/what was "driving."

Love ...

Dear Kay,

Thank you!

is sensation thought or is sensation, sensation? Sensation may seem to appear when thought labelled ‘self-talk’ appears…but how is it known that the label ‘self-talk’ caused the sensation?
Sensation is sensation. Thought says that "this thought caused this sensation ...

Dear Kay,

You're right - sorry. Yes, a lot of overthinking. I will try to keep it simple. (Could not find who/what is trying, and who is thinking too much, or worried about not getting it).

Did you look and find a 'do-er" anywhere?

No do-er: just thought and sensation when looking.

Did you ...

Dear Kay,

Also, have a look to see if you can find a ‘do-er’! :)
Thank you Kay for the reminder to have fun with this. I often think that I need that reminder.
Noticed today that when there are sensations and thoughts that thought says are "painful, bad, not right, uncomfortable" there is a more ...

Dear Kay,

That is why I say LOOKING must happen every day throughout the day.
Today it seemed that there was more often looking throughout the day, at various moments. Sometimes it felt that looking was happening automatically, and simply, breaking things down into AE. Other times, more often, it ...

Dear Kay,

Thank you! I will continue looking at thoughts/sensation appearing.

Can a “me’ be found or only thoughts ABOUT a “me”?
A me cannot be found, just thoughts about a me.

It comes back to did you author any of those thoughts?
No, I did not - they just appeared. This understanding comes ...