Hi Bernadette,

I don't see it in our thread, only my last response to you.

Best,
Andrei

Hello Bernadette,

Nice to hear back from you! We can proceed as fast or as slow as it works for you, not a problem at all. I've been through the hurricane this weekend and lost power, so sorry for the delayed response.

I am still getting caught in Thinking a lot, at least noticing this more and ...

Hi Bernadette,

Sorry for taking long time to respond. I am on vacation and traveling at the moment.

Does this mean that existence is a thought as well?
"Existence" is a concept, isn't it? For example, first you see your hand, then you come to a conclusion "the hand exists". By thinking about ...

Hi Bernadette,

So how does it feel to realize this? Can you say that there is been a shift in a way how you see your original problem that brought you to LU? Is there still a sense of the same sort of seeking going on?

What sits at the end/ direction of the arrow - feels like a pointy projection ...

Bernadette,

It feels like you are wavering too much into mental self-analysis again. Let's put all hypotheses aside for now and keep it really simple.

how to deal with what everyday life brings, ie whats coming my way
Can you detect the facility that is to deal with it? Whose way it is coming ...

Very nice looking Bernadette! From your words it looks like the frozen parts of your life begin to thaw and flow again.

Still not clear on how to deal with whats coming my way, ie differently to either "head on collision " or "collapse " - part from my habitual patterns.
It seems that you are ...

Bernadette,

It's very good that you were able to separate the sensations from associated thoughts and labels. Moments of grief in this work are often also a good sign, as we carry a lot of such hidden emotions, and bringing them up to the surface is a necessary step in letting them go.

We often ...

Hi Bernadette,
Coming out of my thinking mind, and using the experiencial mind is something I am learning to do whilst unlearning the strong habitual way of thinking.
It does not require using any "mind", thinking or experiential. All it takes is simply noticing whatever is already reported ...

Hi Bernadette,

It's very good that you have such a strong resolve to continue and get to the bottom of this! It is only a matter of time.

I am discovering " what a DE" is and in particular DE of existence and nonexistence. I wish to arrive at what these in DE are myself and am willing to continue ...

Hi Bernadette,

Surfacing fears are a sign that you are ready to consciously face them, rather than push them away. Just admit their presence and investigate with curiosity what comes up, focusing on the sensations. If they become too intense, you might try the EFT ("emotional freedom technique ...

Bernadette,

It looks like you had a bout of what's called "restlessness" in Buddhist tradition. It is always present until full liberation, but is usually obfuscated by more coarse layers of illusion. Next time just stay with the sensation, explore it. Is there any real danger? Can anything ...

Non existence - I do not get in DE any feeling of colour or shape? Emptiness
Existence in DE - sensations and feelings, colours - white, spectrum of colours,...; sensation of breathing,
You are giving me examples of experiences that you interpret as "non-existence" or "existence". But I am asking ...

Hi Bernadette,

Existence/ non existence in diect experience - i mean existence on the earthly plane as human, non existence as there being a bunch of experiences and sensations.
Let's get even closer to the direct experience. Take a look at your hand. You can clearly see its shape, color, count ...

Bernadette,

Good looking, thanks!

In terms of direct experience, can you describe what being "stuck in thoughts" looks like? Please try looking from a single moment viewpoint, unless you can find a prolonged period of time in DE.

You mentioned that a single thought can last seconds - what do you ...

Hi Bernadette,

It's never easy to look where you never bothered to look before, but that's where you find the opportunity for a change.

What makes up a body - just about can see it is made of colours, various sensations,.... shapes? Maybe?
Do you see all of them at once? E.g. when you look at ...