Oh,
wasnt sure if you were asking to clarify #5 or give examples..

5)Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your experience.
deciding I is a thought, an illusion. thinking that 'i' create is also a thought.. its just... grace.. idk ...

Cool:]

So Jon, the statement you quoted
Or everytime people stare at me, there is this idea of body self intact in mind
like you said, the dissolving of illusion is noticed..

Without a self, what remains? What is real?
Without a self... everything remains..
what is real? the grace of this ...

my sister is arguing with the husband.. uh.. ok.. there is a thought that Julia is being affected by them arguing, wanting to control the situation, but julia can't control, because julia is an illusion.. and this noticer is also a thought

like..
Julia is angry.. as it is..
Julia is lost, let it be..
Julia is not letting go, ok..
Julia found a job, ok cool.
Julia might be fired, uh oh.. ok..

Hi Jon!

strange, i didn't get any notification for the past two entries from you.. I got curious and decided to check in..

4)What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

5)Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your ...

1. There never was a self.. all is just in the thought content.

2. illusion of separate self is and starts when there is an indirect seeing.. There is a 'me' filter creating an illusion that a 'me' is existent. it is easily noticed when feelings grip, it is due to an indirect seeing of self when ...

Thought is always re-creating an impression of 'I', isn't it? So, noticing the most recent dream of 'I' is also the seeing through of the illusion again. :-)
yes.. yes!!! repeatedly..


Do you feel that the illusion of 'self' has been 'seen'? Are there any doubts about what has been seen?
Yes ...

Only if there is a 'you' that could be 'boxed in'. Is there one?

who or what 'tries to hold'?

Jon.. How could I have not seen this.. or been missing it.. idk if the previous posts were answered under the 'enlightened i' to say that there is no me..

But it took me few glances back reading this ...

There is an impression of 'a person', 'me' that gets 'sucked back into a busy world'.

Did I ever suggest that 'you' had to maintain 'awareness'? Is 'awareness something that 'you' could 'do' or does it simply appear to happen when it does?

When it seems that awareness returns, is there one that ...

I realize that I can hold nothing as a reference... It is so easy to miss 'now'. what is is noticing right now..

everything could be a story...

Hi Jon..
I think so..
There was an excitement of me seeing this duality.. within an illusion.. I guess..
And I was holding onto that same 'impact' of seeing.. The 'I' seeing this and feeling excited about it.. But in the previous post, you guided that.. there is no self that 'could lose awareness ...

Jon.. i keep losing the awareness... im sucked back into this busy world... especially in presence of others.. this awareness totally goes away...

Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G920A using Tapatalk

Oh no..

No rush here jon.. im actually still trying to grasp this whole choice decision control free-will thing.. its quite huge..

Get well soon :)

Julia

Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G920A using Tapatalk

Because.. what life? Of who's?

Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G920A using Tapatalk

Eek, I had this entry twice.. this is my 3rd.. hehe but I think my earlier entries wouldve been chaotic anyways.. alot of confusions expressed in the other two that got logged out and accidentally erased with ctrl+a..
It gave me a chance to think and rethink at different moods and setting..

well ...