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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Sat Jun 19, 2021 4:10 am

Hello Again Vince....
Is this something that actually happens? (or is it something that you imagine happens..)
If it is, then do you see stories rushing in to a vacuum called about the experience?
I really dont know what "Actually happens" means. What is actually happening right now? Am I actually typing on a key board, or do I just imagine that I am. If this were taking place in a night time dream ( as different from this daytime dream) and I were typing,,,would I be actually typing? From the vantage point of the dream, yes, but from the me lying asleep in my bed, no. So does story , any of it at any 'time' actually happen? Well, no, nothing is happening at all. There are appearances, experiences, thoughts, feelings, perceptions that come and go. Even the sense of 'me' comes and goes. Its only around when thought is present. In deep sleep there is existence, as there always is (duh!) but there is no 'me'. When "I" am fully engaged in an activity there is just the activity...no me, no I...unless thought shows up (how?) and takes ownership of that particular movement. This typing, this life, these thoughts, feelings, experiences, just rise and fall. And even all this is "just a story"
The story of what the thought was about isn't experienced, but the physical/emotional response to that story is.
Dont quite see this...the story of what thoughts are about must be experienced...or we couldnt be discussing them right now. Sure seems like I experience stories about thoughts about experiences. Ah...what a (word) mess!
What i just said is true, but it also isn't.
So what is real and what isnt? All of it and none of it? Do I get this or not get it? In a relative sense yes or no, but in an absolute sense there is nothing to get or not get, nor anyone to get it..or not.
Can you remember the first story that led to an instinctual reaction to snakes?
Nope, cant say that I can...perhaps a collective unconscious thing. Morphic resonant field stuff.
What is your story about "pure awareness"?
If you are touched somewhere, is it possible to become aware of the physical sensation without an explanation (story) arising about it?[
I dont know what is and what isnt a story anymore. If words and concepts are used isnt is all story downstream of that?
So to talk about any of this, including awareness or where there is or isnt a story...is all story...or thought layed over experience. As soon as a thought enters it necessarily pollutes or corrupts experience...but how else do we communicate about any of this chit.

Much love and confusion....

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Sat Jun 19, 2021 11:23 am

Hey Vince.....me again....

Was just reading from the LU app i the "Intro" section. This line still has me confused.
The body and all physical objects exist in reality, but "self"... does not exist in reality.
I have seen this distinction made before in LU and it is still unclear to me what is meant by "reality". If all the universe is the projection of mind, if all so called objects are temporary and thus not Real, than why use one unreal thing to prove the non existence of another non-real thing? I have looked at this many times and it continues to befuddle. Can you shed some light here?

Thanks mucho

Bennett

Oh, and a heads up...I am travel to Alaska on Tuesday June 22 and returning July 1. Not much internet out in the bush up there yet so my posts will be a little more spotty than usual. Any vacation assignments you can recommend?

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby vinceschubert » Sun Jun 20, 2021 2:31 pm

Hey Bennett,
The body and all physical objects exist in reality, but "self"... does not exist in reality.
I have seen this distinction made before in LU and it is still unclear to me what is meant by "reality".
Here is a great quote from Jed McKenna. It's really apt here;
Whatever you look at, whatever you think about, whatever you put your focus on, will begin to shimmer and waver out of existence. Whatever you try to grab will provide no resistance. Everything in the dreamstate can be undermined and dismantled simply through clear-seeing. You’re not rendering the world transparent, it already is, you’re just learning to see.
-Jedvaita: The Way the World Unfolds (2025)

As soon as we start to investigate anything, it becomes apparent that it is constructed with many smaller parts. ..and if we pick any of those parts to look closer at, it becomes apparent that it too is made up of smaller parts. It doesn't stop.
Everything that we notice is dependent on perspective. https://lightnightgreekfire.files.wordp ... adows.jpeg
Some words are really corrupted. That is they mean different things to different people. God, Enlightenment, Truth, reality are some of these. Best to avoid them.
i prefer the word actual. There is implied interaction with what is actual.
If all the universe is the projection of mind, if all so-called objects are temporary and thus not Real, than why use one unreal thing to prove the non existence of another non-real thing? I have looked at this many times and it continues to befuddle. Can you shed some light here?
Hmm. Ok. Sit down. We need to have a serious talk here. (grin)
The universe isn't purely mind projection. There is something out there. We call it the world, but that is just a word to cover everything. We don't know what it actually is. We do know that it appears different for each species. That it appears different for each of us humans too. Why is that? (rhetorical question) Because we each have unique filters, developed by our unique experiences and unique DNA that we use to interpret any new experiencing.
So while we are at it... mind, real, prove, non-existence, thing, universe, etc. These are all concepts that are useful, but dont' actually exist with any inherent independence. They are not things. They are ideas.
We are not about proving anything here. It doesn't tale proof to see the fallacy of mistaking a concept as something actual.
Life is simplified incredibly when you're not wasting huge amounts of energy living out ridiculous story lines. You are liberated from all of that.
Of course it does take a while to change the habits that are the result of a lifetime of conditioning.
Any vacation assignments you can recommend?
Just laugh each time that you catch yourself living out a storyline.
If this were taking place in a night time dream ( as different from this daytime dream) and I were typing,,,would I be actually typing?
Yes you would, although it couldn't be found in any other dream.
What is actually happening right now? Am I actually typing on a key board, or do I just imagine that I am.
Of course you are. Although typing is a concept and what you are actually doing is way more complex if we examine it in detail.
Along with your fingers moving and squiggles appearing on a screen, there is many imaginings happening about the typing. This is where the projecting happens.
There are appearances, experiences, thoughts, feelings, perceptions that come and go. Even the sense of 'me' comes and goes. Its only around when thought is present. In deep sleep there is existence, as there always is (duh!) but there is no 'me'. When "I" am fully engaged in an activity there is just the activity...no me, no I...unless thought shows up (how?) and takes ownership of that particular movement. This typing, this life, these thoughts, feelings, experiences, just rise and fall. And even all this is "just a story"
Yes, yes, yes. It's all story. ..and responding to that story.
Dont quite see this...the story of what thoughts are about must be experienced...or we couldnt be discussing them right now.
The key word here is experience. If i say the words "pink elephant", do you experience the letters that make up the words or do you experience an image of a funny colored pachyderm?
Of course there will be other stories (and responses to them) attached to this image too.
What is your experience of this (from previous post)
Of course the contents of the thought is experienced. ..but it isn't. Each time we approach the content of the thought, a story intervenes. So the first time we approached the direct experience, we find ourselves responding to something. To a story, but that story was prompted by another story. ..and that story by one beneath the previous story.
So what is real and what isnt? All of it and none of it? Do I get this or not get it? In a relative sense yes or no, but in an absolute sense there is nothing to get or not get, nor anyone to get it..or not.
Ha.. forget this stuff. It's philosophy. Questions without answers. If you can't relate it back to your experience, forget it. It belongs in the mystery bag.

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Sat Jul 03, 2021 11:22 am

Hello again there Vince,
Back from my travels ,cyber-reconnected ,and back in the (online) saddle of investigation.
Any vacation assignments you can recommend?
Just laugh each time that you catch yourself living out a storyline.
I couldnt find anything that wasn't a story...at some level. No big laughs but lots of deep smiling. Was I really flying at 35,000 feet in a silver tube with 248 other souls....or was that just an agreed upon interpretation of the sounds, sensations, feelings, sights that were being experienced. Did travel actually happen? ....or was that all just a story? I am here now, did I go anywhere? Was I a separate entity having a separate experience from all the other thousands of seeming separate entities around me?

These are the questioned that arose to which the only answer I could find was (is) ....there is so much storyline going on I really cant discern what is and what isnt story. I compare it to the dreams I had last night...in which I traveled a lot and had great fantastical adventures...but never moved an inch. Sights were seen, feelings were felt, touch, hearing, etc all happened yet I had no receptors, other than dream ones, to register any of this.

In the infinity of the Absolute its all a story.

Smiles and a Thank you , Vince

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby vinceschubert » Sun Jul 04, 2021 2:16 pm

Hey Bennett, good to read you again.
I couldnt find anything that wasn't a story...at some level.
Ha yes. Excellent. At a practical level. What happens when we recognize that it's all story that we are responding to?
Now story is a great concept to communicate this stuff, but it's a bit simplistic and it includes some inbuilt judgement.
When we talk about a story we often say "it's just a story". This implies that it lacks reality, but the responses we have to story are certainly real enough.
or was that just an agreed upon interpretation of the sounds, sensations, feelings, sights that were being experienced.
Yes that interpretation is necessary for communication purposes.
Did travel actually happen?
Ha, an interesting one. Certainly for description purposes travelling happened. It now exists as memory. While you were travelling, you were always some place you called here. To travel you have to compare somewhere with a memory of anther place.
....or was that all just a story?
There was lots of experiencing, so certainly not all story. (and definitely not "just")
Was I a separate entity having a separate experience from all the other thousands of seeming separate entities around me?
if everything that stimulated a sense organ was involved in that experiencing, how can anything be separate?
I compare it to the dreams I had last night...in which I traveled a lot and had great fantastical adventures...but never moved an inch. Sights were seen, feelings were felt, touch, hearing, etc all happened yet I had no receptors, other than dream ones, to register any of this.
Yes, and you responded in the dream as you would to when awake. The only difference is that now you are looking at it from a different consciousness.
Just as (i imagine) that you now see (so called) normal life from a different consciousness that you did before.

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Tue Jul 06, 2021 11:54 am

G'day Vince
Thanks for the response and insights.
What happens when we recognize that it's all story that we are responding to?
What happens for me is there is less me. I see, sense, feel and am engaged with the character bennett and now there is a little gap in identification with that character. It feels looser, not so restrictive or confining....and a bit less serious.
When we talk about a story we often say "it's just a story". This implies that it lacks reality, but the responses we have to story are certainly real enough.
There was lots of experiencing, so certainly not all story. (and definitely not "just")
I see what you mean about "just"....there is some subtle yet no less profound judgement there isnt there? Hadnt seen that. "Just" is a a bit dismissive of the significance of the story or experience. Whether it is 'real' or not is perhaps not for us to say. A story can be a story and still be highly significant and important. How much of this , 'my' life experience turns out to be REAL in an absolute or ultimate sense does not effect or detract from its importance right now. And this question follows.... if something arises in the Absolute, coming from the Absolute and appearing to the Absolute could it be insignificant? Is that even possible? If not, than welcome, gratitude and curiosity would naturally follow. Anything less than this would be some form of rejection.
Was I a separate entity having a separate experience from all the other thousands of seeming separate entities around me?
if everything that stimulated a sense organ was involved in that experiencing, how can anything be separate?
Get it...how could anything be separate indeed!? A true misnomer. A false concept appearing true.
Just as (i imagine) that you now see (so called) normal life from a different consciousness that you did before.
Yes, this is beginning to permeate my moments of experience and dissolving the erroneous (false...as it turns out!) assumption of a separate "I".
"Normal" turns out to be exceptional...and contains ALL of IT.

Thanks again for your insights, Vince

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby vinceschubert » Wed Jul 07, 2021 9:45 pm

Hey Capt'n,
...and a bit less serious.
This is a big one. It seems that a default for humans is good-natured humor, happiness.
not so restrictive or confining.
Yes, the rules based characterization imposed by cult(ure) is a prison. (hence the term "liberation")
if something arises in the Absolute, coming from the Absolute and appearing to the Absolute could it be insignificant?
Ha, this is a trick. That absolute (oops with a capital A) is not separate from 'you'. Just as the stardust that your body is made from is not separate.
could it be insignificant?
Can anything be insignificant or significant unless focus is narrowed?
Anything less than this would be some form of rejection.
Is that possible? Can the sky reject the clouds.

Bennett, have a go at these questions to see if there is any area that we have missed.
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?

2) Share in your own words what the illusion of separate self is and how it shows up in experience. Also, through your inquiry, what is different now?

3) How does it feel to see this?
What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over; made you look?

5) a) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work?
Give examples from your own recent experiences to how things happen and how things work.

b) What are you responsible for? Give examples from your own recent experiences to how this works.

6) Anything to add?

Describe how the illusion of an independent self came into being by giving examples from actual experience.
Then give some experiential examples of how life changed for you after seeing through this illusion.
Can you remember any specific enquiry that resulted in an epiphany? ..a before and after seeing the actuality of the Self.

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Thu Jul 08, 2021 11:58 am

Dear Vince

How simple it all is...who knew? Who is there to know? So, who knew? No one. No one to know or be known...nothing in fact to know. It all makes me chuckle and smile deeply. Especially at this....
Anything less than this would be some form of rejection.
Is that possible? Can the sky reject the clouds.
This made me laugh out loud! Of course...so duh.

And this gem..
if something arises in the Absolute, coming from the Absolute and appearing to the Absolute could it be insignificant?
Ha, this is a trick. That absolute (oops with a capital A) is not separate from 'you'. Just as the stardust that your body is made from is not separate.
Duh! What a trickster the searching mind is. "I" see this now. As you say, no significance or insignificance unless focus is narrowed ...and why bother?

And for you to present me with those questions....is it that simple....to be done with the search....just like that? No ceremony, no fanfare, no big lead up....just one day....there it is, like its always been, just unseen. This make me laugh too. What the f have I been looking for? The search was preventing me from seeing.

I will get to those dear delightful questions this evening...just want to fire this off now on my way to "work" (why does that make me laugh too? "work'...its so funny!)

Many, many thanks, Vince.

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Mon Jul 12, 2021 11:37 am

Well that explains that, Vince

I see the last post I wrote didnt make it up on the forum so I'll have a go at it again now and this evening. Here's a copy of what I started to write. several days ago..


Hello Vince

Here's the answer to those few questions from your last post...
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
When I stop and really look, right here, right now there is no separate entity thingy "me". There are thoughts that appear and disappear. Feeling, sensations, sights, sounds come and go on their own..out of formlessness and back into formlessness. The notion of a separate "I" is so innocently comical....almost cute. Ever? How could there be? Thats even funnier.  There is no me typing, reading or sitting.  All those things are happening, yes, but not to or for or with or by a "me".  This is so clear and so simple.
I cant say that I am totally free of the effects of the belief in that self thing.  It is still hanging around, like images of Santa Claus appear every Christmas and he is real in his own way for that season and has a purpose and significance and yet I know he is just a fictional character.  The "me" story is like that.  It is here and has relevance and is useful but it is no longer fully believed to be the case.  And what a delightful, comical relief!   

Wrote the above last night and this morning the individual sense of a separate sense is fully here. I,me, mine, ....they, them, theirs. I understand this but dont really get it. IT makes sense that its a story ...an add on, imagination, yet I dont seem to be able to truly experience anything other that the perspective of the separate I.


That's what I was able to recover and recreate. I'll just add that I am feeling a little,( ok, a lot) stuck right now. I can see what you are pointing to but just cant somehow seem to be able to really truly get it.

Down but not out.....

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Postby vinceschubert » Mon Jul 12, 2021 10:49 pm

Good morning Bennett,
I cant say that I am totally free of the effects of the belief in that self thing.
Me neither. ...but are you still deluded by it or is it now an illusion that sometimes appears?
Have you considered that it (the illusion of a self) is useful?
Until the whole world wakes up and a new language evolves, it would be a statement of alienation to avoid using personal pronouns.
yet I don't seem to be able to truly experience anything other than the perspective of the separate I.
It's enough (for the moment) to recognize the illusion (of a self) when it is reconsidered.
Experiences change when we reframe the world in our head, but it takes time (haha)

Looking forward to the rest of your answers.
I see the last post I wrote didnt make it up on the forum so I'll have a go at it again now and this evening. Here's a copy of what I started to write. several days ago..
It could be a bummer when that happens. It's an opportunity to accept 'what IS'.
i don't try to recreate what i previously wrote when it happens here, and often i am surprised to see what extra comes from the rewrite.

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Tue Jul 13, 2021 11:52 pm

Hey Vince....

Thanks for your response and questions.
...but are you still deluded by it or is it now an illusion that sometimes appears?
I find sometimes yes and sometimes no. Moments of just smiling at the simplicity and absurdity of the idea of a separate self and other times way caught up in believing all "its" stories. I still get dragged into the drama of it all..past-future anxiety/regret/ emotions etc. It is taking incredible vigilance to sit "myself" down and have the conversation that starts out..."Is it True? IS this happening to a self...or is it just happening? What is being directly experienced right now?" I keep getting lost in the character role but I am able to step back and see the character. And that there is no "one" seeing this, but just the seeing. All verbs, no nouns
Have you considered that it (the illusion of a self) is useful?
Until the whole world wakes up and a new language evolves, it would be a statement of alienation to avoid using personal pronouns.
Great way to put this. And yes, I can see how it , the illusion, is helpful, even necessary right now. What kind of a play would it be without all these goofy characters running around thinking they were "real" ? How else would "I" be able to interact with the program if there wasnt an Avatar called Bennett. There is a "bennett-ing" happening and a "vince-ing" happening and see-ing and ......
Experiences change when we re-frame the world in our head, but it takes time (haha)
Good to know. I'll let it mature at its own pace.

Onto those questions from a few days ago...
2) Share in your own words what the illusion of separate self is and how it shows up in experience. Also, through your inquiry, what is different now?
What is different is that everything is seen as the same. No separate selves or things or energies....nothing. There is just life, being, happening...by itself, to itself, for itself. One movement. The illusion of a separate self is just that...an illusion, although a useful one as I described above. In the same way labeling a tree a tree or a car a car is useful to move about this world but both labels are just symbols of ideas. Useful, but not to be taken to seriously or literally. So in that sense there is a me, a Bennett here, but not really. Just a symbol of an idea. It shows up in experience as a localization of perception....a modulation in life energy. Seemingly localized, but only for the sake of experience. Its a convenience.
3) How does it feel to see this?
What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
That's the irony here....there is noting to see....and no one to see it. IT is just what has been all along...and even that is quite right.All along implies linearity of some sort but it is just THIS. No before, no after, no along. These word things can only very crudely point to what is beyond conceptualization. Since starting this dialogue, I dont mind whatever happens. Why would I? What a relief! The ups, the downs, the good, the bad, the night the day......its all welcomed as what is appearing. Everything is exactly as it has always been...I see that now.

Long day at work...will finish these manana.

Gracias Vince, Mucho Gracias

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Thu Jul 15, 2021 12:01 am

Hello Vince

Onto more of those questions
4. What was the last bit that pushed you over; made you look?
Cant say I've been pushed over anything. It all feels the same. And yet not. Looking made me look. No me really, just the looking.
5) a) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work?
Give examples from your own recent experiences to how things happen and how things work.
Decision:...Now that's funny!
Intention.....Even funnier.
Free will....Free of what? "Outside" influences? Outside of what? No inside or outside.
Choice? Control? This is a really funny question!
What makes things happen? how does it work? How can IT not work? Things happening make things happen. All one cause and one effect....and even that is to complicated.
The answers to these questions are happening now, as is the sound of rain falling, and the air conditioner and all the rest of the stories. Nothing happens, no need to work or not work. Everything is happening within no happening. How could anything come or go? To where? From where?
6) Anything to add?
Yeh, WOW, and ....Duh!

Just incredible, Vince?

Much Love

Bennett



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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby vinceschubert » Fri Jul 16, 2021 2:52 pm

Good evening Bennett, In Q4 you say that "it all feels the same", yet in Q3 you say "Since starting this dialogue, I don't mind whatever happens. Why would I? What a relief!"
How sure are you that these are descriptions of experience and not something that is thought sourced?
It is taking incredible vigilance to sit "myself" down and have the conversation that starts out..
Describe more about this "vigilance". It sounds like something that you have decided to do. That you chose to do and are in control of it.

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Sat Jul 17, 2021 12:43 pm

Ah Christ Vince...I get all this and I totally dont get it. I cant say that I've truely deeply "seen" something, or crashed some Gate. Santa still seems very real. I can sit here and chat with you and feel like "I got it" and then I go home and I have the same stupid pointless arguments with my wife, get caught up in all the happenings of the day, back to feeling and experiencing the world as a separate me, drink to much at night, come back here in the morning, contemplate this stuff and it all makes sense again. I feel like a schizo...a fraud. Sure, I can answer your questions, and in the moment really truly believe I've touched on something, somekind of shift or realization. I can be very convincing...even convince myself.... and then I get up and get on with "my" life and ...nothing....Right back into the same stupid shit of anxiety,attachments, patterns, habits, judgments, internal and external warfare...all the crap. I think I may be wasting my time and yours...like I would be better off giving this whole thing up, live this life out, die, and see what happens next. I am told there is clarity,peace, love, understanding..all that..waiting for us. I've also been told that that is available to us all now and we dont have to wait for the death experience to realize our true nature. But it is eluding the shit outta me! I do appreciate your guidance, time and effort. I just honestly dont know that this is going to go anywhere. Like I'm constantly back to square one.

As to your last question...
Describe more about this "vigilance". It sounds like something that you have decided to do. That you chose to do and are in control of it.
Vigilance, attention, effort, interest, Grace....whatever....its there...am I in control of it?? Beats the crap outta me. I dont know what is in control of anything anymore....but it sure persistently, doggedly, irrationally, maddeningly feels like there is an "I" that is in control of that vigilance or this typing, or going home and having breakfast....even if that is all a lie. I'm a pathological liar I guess.

Maybe this will become clear to me....

Thanks again Vince. sorry for the bummer tone of this post, but it is where I am right now ( and often am).

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Re: Untie the lines! Stop shuffling and deal!

Postby CapnBoomer » Sat Jul 17, 2021 12:46 pm

And as to your other question from the last post....
How sure are you that these are descriptions of experience and not something that is thought sourced?
Not ....and I dont know that I could recognize the difference.
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