Smoke and mirrors

[Anastacia42]

there's a feeling of expansion and emptiness all at once, like if the "body" was encompassing everything but was empty at the same time.

That's the kind of shift in perception we're looking for.

It won't be 24/7. There's likely to.be a "honeymoon period," and then Wendy we call, "got it, lost it," as untruebeliefs come up to be questioned.

Watch this, please:

https://youtu.be/vJQcD588g2w

and

https://youtu.be/PUDzrCLlrj4

From an email from Ilona

Nothing dramatic happened.

There were no fireworks.
No permanent bliss states.
No sudden personality changes.

And yet, something shifted.


Here are a few things people said afterwards:

“I’m not fighting my experience anymore. There’s more space around everything.”

“I expected something big to happen. Instead, life feels simpler and I trust myself more.”

“There’s less urgency. The seeking has softened.”


This is the kind of shift this work supports.

Ilona Cuinate

Can you say 100% there's no separate "self.?" you see that Santa is a man in a red suit and even if he puts the suit back on , you know better.

Loving

[Eileen]

Can you say 100% there's no separate "self.?"

I'm not sure. I don't think I can say it 100%, there seems to still be a lot of identification with thoughts. But then, from watching that second video, it could be the ego fighting for its life. So a lot of confusion.
I had an expectation that I would know when it happened, but I don't, and there is a fear that I could believe I'm there when I'm not and keep living in the dark.

[Anastacia42]

Okay. Yes, usually, you'll know, although you can get stuck in Doubt, which can be tough.

Let's go back to ButtChair just LOOKING & finding no division.

Keep posting what you you find.

Loving

[Eileen]

Let's go back to ButtChair just LOOKING & finding no division.

Tingling is felt, the feeling of whatever material the seat is made of, looking for division but only finding sensations, different kinds of tingling, warmth. The sense of divisions melts away in that area, chair & butt feel as one and the tingling diminishes.

Love,

[Anastacia42]

Good. This awareness can open you to the shift in perception that happens when you see there is no "self" in DE.

Loving

[Eileen]

Similar experience today.
Warmth, pressure, tingling, waves of tingling, looking for division, nothing found, it feels like the area is totally open, waves of more subtle tingling, looking for division, nothing found, the sense of where the division should be is lost.

Love,

[Anastacia42]

Beautiful.

Watch for a shift in perception.

loving,

[Eileen]

Feeling warmth, tingling, looking for the division and still nothing is found, a sense of infinite depth where the division would be expected, but only in the area that is observed. Tingling waves still happening. Thoughts. The sensation of depth goes away.

Love,

[Anastacia42]

Remember, the shift in perception is just as likely to happen when you're not practicing. Just stay relaxed.

Loving,

[Eileen]

A lot more thoughts arising today and interrupting the focus. Looking for division, pressure, some pain, thoughts, looking for division again, tingling, thoughts, looking for division, warmth, tingling, more thoughts, etc... There's only a few times I could feel the sense of division fading away.

Perception seemed as usual.

With love,

[Anastacia42]

Thoughts arise. That won't stop.

Try this.

https://youtu.be/SePK1eQ-FCE?is=6NrbiNEuEFlqJ1Gl

Loving

[Eileen]

Thanks for the link!
It didn't feel like I was resisting the thoughts, but after doing the exercise in the video for a while I felt a lot more relaxed and everything felt a lot more spacious for a few hours. It also felt as if my body was somehow foreign, something that had happened before when I was working though the gate crashers book, before you started guiding me.
Noticing the thoughts and the space in which they arise seemed to reduce the attachment/identification and gave a feeling of calm, space and clarity.

In any case it was a lot easier to go back to buttchair after that.

Do I need to report on the sensations noticed during the buttchair exercise? I've been doing this but it doesn't seem to be of great value as it is very repetitive. At the same time I'm not always sure what to write.

I know I've already said this but thank you for everything you're doing!

[Anastacia42]

You're welcome.

after doing the exercise in the video for a while I felt a lot more relaxed and everything felt a lot more spacious for a few hours. It also felt as if my body was somehow foreign,

We are looking for a shift in perception exactly like this.

Can you find any separate self? Or just spacious awareness?


Loving

[Eileen]

Can you find any separate self? Or just spacious awareness?

I'm having trouble answering this today. It still feels like there is a self, but I can't place it. I don't think I'm quite there yet.
Something has changed though, the body still felt foreign most of the day, like if I was watching out of someone else's eyes. There's still a sense of space and calm and everything looks more vibrant. All of this tends to stop when I get really engaged in some daily activity.

Earlier in the day I've noticed some fear as well when trying to answer the question, there's a fear to believe I'm through and realise I'm not, fear that people will think I'm pretentious enough to think I can do it and laugh at me. I noticed the thoughts, then another thought arose that there is no me to do anything anyway.

I would say that it feels like I'm close, but that's just a thought as well.

Love,

[Anastacia42]

Please review the Post from Tuesday October 11 at 6:11 above.

Loving,