good place

[graceabounds]

The body likely doesn’t speak in words, how does the body express?

[daisyrain]

The body likely doesn’t speak in words, how does the body express?

in fullness or openness right now.
there's hesitance and carefully looking.
emotions coming up.

There's a thought pattern alongside tears starting to form, going: "Oh god, I'm too dried up to cry. It will hurt, cause I feel like a desert being wrung out".

There's flowing,
thought: Not really sure what is flowing

Sometimes thoughts seem to bubble up from "somewhere deeper"
like: "Oh god, I am forsaken"

Energetic shifting.

There's sometimes (right now) the experience of energetics moving "towards me", along with the assumption that "this can't be taken".
(this me seems to be located "in the head, behind the eyes")



relaxation can come as an answer.
There's also worry, that's probably mind chatter. yeah.

[daisyrain]

sentences and hidden believes occasionally pop up into clarity, like "I'm a failure and I will never amount to anything", which just felt liberating to hear.

But also (I'm especially asking the heart) there's more to the answer, that I'd describe as a cloud-like space. Like one can see tension, relaxation and emotion here. Maybe that seeing is thought image on top of that, but at that point, who really cares. A lot is actually felt

[daisyrain]

it's a little like the body can hold onto experience

[daisyrain]

So, this "I don't really know that" attitude visits occasionally (not a thought, but as what is causing a distance to thoughts).

And nothing can be said about it, that isn't recognised as thought. What is noticed is, that grasping for a story and failing causes somewhat of a sadness

[graceabounds]

Sadness where? In the body? Or is sadness only present inside the thought that something (a story) should be different?

‘I’ is a lie. The body contracts in the presence of that lie. In the absence of the I-thought the body relaxes.

So…

relaxation can come as an answer

Follow this instead of the contraction for a bit. See what emerges.

[daisyrain]

Dear Becc

Follow this instead of the contraction for a bit. See what emerges.

yeah, there's great relaxation.
For example there's a very alive and noticeable pulsating sensation in the knee right now. It doesn't sound like much, but it couldn't be more interesting in a way. I couldn't even tell you what label "it once held", but there's a sense "I" completely have mistaken it for something.
the cheeks also feel, just vibrant.
From the point of relaxation I can even ask the tension, what it wants, and there's the capacity to take the response.

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I am not sure, what I'm doing in terms of teaching the last couple of days or so.
Signing up here I agreed to not consume other spiritual material, but I have been a bit unfaithful to that. I am a bit sorry about that. It feels bodily very very resonant here. There's a conflict, but I think it wasn't really consumerism.
It's from a person good with doubt mentioned in the video you sent me (vince https://1ness.info/). I feel like it helps with doubt and getting into the body.

I feel odd writing that, and feel like I have cheated your trust in this as well. I wasn't really sure how to communicate that I stumbled upon the material, but I've read some pages from the website by now and not telling you that would feel like a mark of dishonesty.

I think I'm mostly conscious of the possibility that this could feel like a form of belittleling your effort in teaching, which is perceived here as just so very grand and pure. Maybe all those words are really redundant, but they feel right to type. The words come and tension relaxes in the body. Okay. Such odd things.

Lots of love,
Nils

[daisyrain]

With that said; If I may I'd like to read through the pages vince has written. They are not that many, though the experience is very right reading them, feeling them in the body.
It feels a little like an explanation that was told me before surely, I have not been picking it up on before.
It's like reading a manual a bit.

[graceabounds]

Vince is good. LU books are good. Todd and Pernille are good. All these are excellent resources in fact, and not at all out of alignment with what is here.

You are welcome to attend Vince’s groups if that feels in resonance. (Or Todd and Pernille’s.) Say hello for me! 👋 Just bring back to here what arises.

… with that said I think loosening the grip on some of the other fetter or spiritual material besides these sources would be wise.

Big love,
Becca

[daisyrain]

… with that said I think loosening the grip on some of the other fetter or spiritual material besides these sources would be wise.

That seems right, can't fit two couches through the door at once when moving.
But looking at doubt as well has been a game changer.
Progress is just a tired thought, but I do feel on fire with all this the recent days :)

[graceabounds]

❤️

[daisyrain]

it might be, that I won't have time to answer here today and tomorrow.
Really taxing work event happening occasionally, wish me luck 😊

[daisyrain]

bit unexpected, but experience today is proving really "transmissive". (yeah, I'm really bad at predicting when I find time to write 😄)

A reoccuring background theme becomes a bit more apparent; A sensation that is "old and heavy".
just writing this a lot moves through the body (good old left leg foremost), tingling in the toes, waves of energy.
Untuitively felt, there's an assumption connected to that "old and heavy" sensation.
Chest is felt, neck, jaw,

old and heavy...

right now it's transformed into "stuck intensity" in the leg.

What is stuck intensity?

That stuck is an assumption surely. What's left still feels like it's under quite a bit of pressure.
there are assumptions around the body not being able to take it.

Tiredness is really working through foot to the head here


It's a bit like this "old and heavy" is attached to every thought. Or a great lot of them.

Old, heavy and slow

like it has great mass and it's inertia is felt.

it's often auto-labeled as negative.

I guess it's also follow up with the assumption of "oh no, I'm lost in thought again"

it feels like gravity.

[daisyrain]

this "old, heavy and slow" might be "certainty".