I am [admin note: LOOKING FOR A NEW GUIDE]

[Alleseins]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
That there is no I, no person inside.

What are you looking for at LU?
That the illusion falls away a little bit more or completely. I have done a lot of inner practice, with byron katie, eckhart tolle, ramana maharshi, tony parsons, mooji, indian gurus... I know there is nobody doing anything but there is still suffering because I very often identify with the thoughts or feelings.

What do you expect from a guided conversation?
That something in me falls away or gets deeper. Some "aha's". That I can let go of controll a little bit more and live life easier. To have someone around me who goes in the same direction and can help me with his inner wisdom.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?
That there is stillnes, peace, nothing, love, space, freedom. That nothing can bother "me".

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self?
11

[Lubo]

Hey Alleseins,
Welcome to the forum!
My name is Lubo, and I will be guiding you through this process, if that is okay with you?

That there is stillnes, peace, nothing, love, space, freedom. That nothing can bother "me".

Freedom YES!
Notice that what you are looking for is to find what seemingly stands in the way of realizing that you are already free!
The shame is the very proof of our freedom.

I want to invite you to try something.
Look with an open curiosity at what you might find, without fighting or resisting anything.

Please, go to the mirror and look at your face.
Do not listen to the judging thoughts.

If you don't pay attention to the "shame of shame" for a moment, what is your direct experience right now?

- What human emotions are present?

- What is the physical impact/sensation in the body?

- How do you feel now?

With so much love,
Lubo

[Alleseins]

Dear Lubo

Thank you for contacting me:) I am happy to start now with you:)
Yes.
Ok... why is the shame the proof of our freedom?

When I stand in front of the mirror I feel my belly that hurts a bit and when I look in to my face like that there is some love or joy but when there are no judgements there is nothing. Then a thought came.. this is not enough, its too boring.;) But without it its just looking and feeling the energy in the body.

Send you love!
Alleseins

[Lubo]

Hey Alleseins

Thank you for contacting me:) I am happy to start now with you:)

So nice!

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When I stand in front of the mirror I feel my belly that hurts a bit and when I look in to my face like that there is some love or joy

YES!

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Then a thought came.. this is not enough, its too boring.;)

What this "its too boring" wants?

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But without it its just looking and feeling the energy in the body.

And now the shift: the energy is looking and feeling the body :)

So much Love Alleseins,
Lubo

[Alleseins]

It wants more. More inner movement like intense love or joy. When I now concentrate on my inner energy it feels so "neutral, so motionless, still". When i judge it i wouldnt say that that is a feeling of happyness or bliss. But that is what "I" want.

[Lubo]

It wants more. More inner movement like intense love or joy.

Let's do this.
Look here:

When i judge it i wouldnt say that that is a feeling of happyness or bliss. But that is what "I" want.

Yes, notice this pattern. Just feel the energy present right now, and see how you want to play with it erotically? :)

It’s simple. When this exact energy shows up, we usually play the same old game. But we can shift it. Instead of complaining or analyzing the pattern, we can start making love with someone—even if it's just in our imagination when doing it in reality isn't an option. :)

For example, I am experiencing stomach pain right now. Usually, I would contract even more and start suffering. But instead, I connected with this energy that appears as pain, identified with it, and imagined playing with it erotically. Instant relief. The pain is naturally replaced by joy, all by itself.

Love to you Alleseins!

[Alleseins]

Thank you for your advice.
Hm but I dont know if it helps with this inner state. This state is not bad its just very neutral.
To do something on the outside- this also includes for me creating thoughts- makes me happy but this is not the state I mean... i mean bliss or love that comes from within that doesnt depend on any outer situation.:)

Love
Alleseins

[Lubo]

So nice Allesiens,
I am curious, when you are identifying with this Love within, is there real thoughts and world?

[Alleseins]

When I get through stuck feelings and can let go of stressful thoughts this love and peace comes. Hm the world still appears real. Thoughts are then more far away from "me" and the deeper this state is the more they feel like an illusion. But the world seems to be real.:)

[Lubo]

When I get through stuck feelings and can let go of stressful thoughts this love and peace comes

Can you say that the stick feelings are the world?

Notice how Love is turn on by stuck feelings. They are so wanted.
let's imagination bring a hot erotic partner wanting this stuck feelings with "Give them to me, my lover".
Give her what she wants from you !
Don't pay attention to the shame of shame.

[Alleseins]

Dear Lubo,

thank you for trying to help me. I understand what you are trying to tell me but I am not so comfortable with this erotic examples. I can also imagine a loving mothers/fathers response to her/his crying babies(=feelings).
Thank you for your help till now but I would like to stop here. I would appreciate it if you send me to another guide. Wish you all the best.
Love Alleseins

[Lubo]

I hear you, dear Alleseins,

thank you for trying to help me. I understand what you are trying to tell me but I am not so comfortable with this erotic examples

I apreciate sharing what is your experience

Thank you for sharing your experience and for being so open with me. I completely understand and respect that the intimacy of those examples felt uncomfortable for you.
I absolutely love your alternative image—imagining a loving mother or father responding to their crying baby. That is incredibly beautiful, and it is a wonderful, profound way to connect with your feelings.

Thank you for your help till now but I would like to stop here. I would appreciate it if you send me to another guide. Wish you all the best.

I also completely understand your wish to transition to another guide, and you are entirely right to advocate for what feels best for you.
The admins will take care of this and pair you with someone else.
My only intention was to help support you, and I am truly sorry that the impact of my words didn't align with that intention.

I wish you absolutely all the best on your journey.

With so much love,
Lubo

[Alleseins]

Thank you! I wish you the same!:))