Looking for help

[sfranci]

Are you saying that other than as the content of thoughts, there is no self?

yes, I can't find it anywhere else.
I look in the mirror and I see an image, I label that as me but how is that different that seeing a chair and labelling it as a chair?

Please just take a wild guess...about what percentage of self-thoughts involve other people in one way or another?

first number that jumped out was 100%

A thought came up as I am writing this...
This work of self-inquiry, is this chasing the experience of no self and is putting attention and energy into the work delaying the experience...
The feeling that came with it was fear, fear that I am doing something wrong or counter productive.

[pozablo]

A thought came up as I am writing this...This work of self-inquiry, is this chasing the experience of no self and is putting attention and energy into the work delaying the experience...
The feeling that came with it was fear, fear that I am doing something wrong or counter productive.

What happens to thoughts and feelings (for example, that thought and that fear) when the memory happens that they just come and go on their own, and that there is no you that created them and no you to do anything about them?

[sfranci]

They pass quickly.
I was having a conversation that triggered the fear of being alone in the future.
I felt the familiar feelings in the body.
Then I was aware the feeling is attached to the thoughts of being alone.
And then I remembered the experience that aloneness is not real and it passed in a few minutes.

[pozablo]

After deep consideration, what questions, concerns or comments do you have now?

[sfranci]

This week was extremely busy at work and my body felt the stress. I can feel it in my shoulders, and back. I didn't catch thoughts that would cause the stress. I knew what to do and I am confident in my overall security in terms of work.
Does the body have cellular memory or can thoughts that are unconscious run the body?

Last week I had a couple of big realizations and although it still feels that it is all happening in the mind, there is the possibility of the self is a made up concept.

My questions now are:

Do I keep questioning the thoughts that come up?
Does the questioning lead to a feeling on non self?
How will I know when I am not in the mind and in the experience?

This week as I feel the stress on my body, the thought coming up is - I am still very associated with an identity and that is causing the feeling of stress.

[pozablo]

Yes, totally normal and familiar stuff.
But not complicated :-)

Let's do a brief zoom or skype.... maybe Sunday morning?

[sfranci]

I can do a zoom Sunday after 1pm Est.

[pozablo]

I can do 1pm Sunday.
Will you send me an invite, please?

[sfranci]

I sent the invite.

[pozablo]

got it, thanks.

[pozablo]

Thank you for the skype.
My day has been enriched.

[sfranci]

As I released a major fear of aloneness in the last few weeks. It feels like the next big fear of getting sick and being sick is coming to the forefront.
I had a couple of signs my body was giving me over the last few months that I didn't want to go to the doctors and I felt intuitive that there was nothing wrong.
Last week I did go to the doctor and I have a couple tests to complete.
I hear many thoughts now that create fear of being sick, and most of the thoughts are around not trusting doctors and fear of not being taken care of.

Would appreciate some inquiry to question this fear.

[pozablo]

Releasing a major fear is a huge life event, congratulations.
Also for doing that reality testing around nothing wrong.

So sorry I can't connect today; can you suggest some times later this week?

How does that feeling of self look now?

[sfranci]

Thank you, the questions here are great. No problem about connecting.
Sitting with the question below.

[pozablo]

So glad.
I'll be here for you.