Waking up to living non dual

[Julesdickson]

Is there anything else or you are ready for the final questions?

You may I ask the final questions thank you :)

[poppyseed]

Hi Jules
Awesome! Here are the final questions. Please answer all questions in full, when you are ready.
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

5) Describe decision & give examples from experience.

Describe intention & give examples from experience.

Describe free will & give examples from experience.

Describe choice & give examples from experience.

Describe control & give examples from experience.

What makes things happen? How does it work?

What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

6) Anything to add?

Love
Rali

[Julesdickson]

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

Hi Rali, no their really is no ‘me’ or ‘I’ or separate self entity. Not actually, or anywhere concrete that can be absolutely true. So no their is not and never was.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

From my experience the illusion of separate self begins when I create value or importance on something in a specific way. when thought identifies with thinking. Their is a thought of a ‘me’ that’s is in danger (for example) to something else. And then then I feel the contraction of a ‘me’. Another example is When I love my partner sometimes it can feel like an ‘I’ loves him. Sometimes not though. So both examples are really from thoughts. One of them is a fear based thought. The thought that their is a me that is going to get hurt or killed. And then the other is that their is a me that loves something specific because in the moment it feels like their is a ‘me’ that loves. Instead of just loving. And when thoughts that value or place importance to one thing over another come on line I find the response to contract as an illusory ‘me’ follows. So to conclude the illusion of a separate me is noticeable when their are thoughts about something in relation to a ‘me’ and they are usually thoughts that are of value to the idea of a ‘me’ staying alive, being in a relationship, making money staying healthy ect.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

When I see this I feel that I am creating more story. And that it’s not necessary to have story to experience the moment. Their doesn’t need to be the filter of a ‘me’ for reality to unfold as it needs to naturally. Their is less contraction on all levels. The difference is not so big I think because naturally I did know that their was no me. But some difference is really knowing and relaxing any ideas I had. I can clearly SEE that nothing changes when their is not a story about what’s happening and that their can just be being without any type of authority and interference of a separate entity saying what’s what.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

The story’s I create about reality and the subtle filters I put over the moment I think made me look. Fearing that I will one day lose my partner was a big one. Which boils down to fear. Which boils down to identifying with the thought fear. Instead of just thinking. Their doesn’t need to be thoughts their can just be thinking, just this. And if something happens to him, it would just be that. Their doesn’t need to be a story about it before during or after. If it’s sad then it’s sad when it’s sad if it’s depressing then it’s depressing when it’s depressing. So what made me look was wondering who it is that’s worried about this story that I have and what’s going on behind all story’s about anything.

5) Describe decision & give examples from experience.

Decision makes itself. How it seems like decision is made would be that an “I” decides the most appropriate option for the ‘me’ that has been cultivated over years of influence and external factors. Deciding to have lemon water in the morning and not a redbul is because valuing health is in the conditioning throughout ‘my’ life. what was subtly exposed to me. If I chose to travel the world it’s because the ‘I’ feels like it’s the most resonant and aligned choice because of its own unique propensity to want to travel due to the culmination of things that effected it to want to do such a thing.
Although, The me and my of decision making are not solid things, but factors of the condition of decision. They are not solid and have no authority in the decision really. And the decision does not effect a me specifically. It is this and then the next moment it is that. Decision ultimately makes itself.

Describe intention & give examples from experience.

Intention is ultimately a thought. Its a response that happens based on the collection of life experiences. If I have the intention to do good things and help people then the only reason to do this is because it what is most natural for me to be doing, due to my life and exposure thus far. So their is a thought, I should give my bananas to these homeless people. It originates from thinking. The intention arises on its own in the moment And the action of intention is done on its own.
Intention intents on its own when it’s occurring.

Describe free will & give examples from experience.

Free will as it’s known is not something we have because their is really no ‘I’ to have authority over any moment. I don’t have free will to attract the friend I do and be friends with these people because it’s due to the collection of life experience that attracts these people and makes the me want to befriend them. Free will is freedom to not will this or that.

Describe choice & give examples from experience.

Choice is whatever choosing chooses. For example if I chose to move out of my apartment because it’s infested with cockroaches. I chose that because it’s what’s appropriate. But I didint really make that choice because the chooser is empty of choice making. Their is only choosing. What I mean by this is that ‘I’ chose to move out of the apartment because I live in a society where cockroaches are not good and because of my life exposure I don’t want to live in a room with bugs crawling on me. But if my apartment was flooded with spontaneously arising 100 doller bills then I would choose to stay there. But I don’t really choose that. The choice makes it’s self

Describe control & give examples from experience.

Control is an idea that their is an I that can change the outcome of things. For example I think I can control what I paint a picture of. But I can’t really control that because even if I have an idea of what I’m going to paint, In the end it’s going to be not exactly as the foreseen outcome. Meaning control is trying to manipulate reality and the feature outcomes of situations which is just impossible. Their is only what is as is arises some controls grip is literally gripping nothing. Their is nothing to grasp. As soon as you try to grab on to something it’s already slipped away. Control is an idea and a thought.

What makes things happen? How does it work?

Things happen on their own. Their does not need to be authority for it to happen. It works because there is constant unfolding all things. So in one moment a baby is 2 and then many moments later it’s 22. Moments unfold seamlessly into the next. Each moment is total and whole as it is and this continues onward. I know this because right now this is THIS moment, it blended seamlessly out of the previous moment. Their was no wondering how it would progress or how it would go, it just went on.

What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

On an absolute level I’m not responsible for anything. For example if I move away from my home country and people are angry and feel abandoned by me I am not responsible for their feelings although they feel as though I am the cause of their sadness. I am not responsible for their feelings because I am not identifying with their thoughts for them. This is something they do on their own without my say. But also I’m responsible for paying my taxes but that’s only on a relative level because I don’t really pay for my taxes. money pays for them, so they pay them selves. And I am only responsible for making money on a relative level also because when I work the money makes it’s self and when I work working works itself and it’s the same for anything else.

6) Anything to add?
Not for now no.

[poppyseed]

Hi Jules
I’m sorry it’s taking so long! I’m still waiting for the other guides to confirm or ask questions. For some reason it’s taking a bit longer than usual :(. I’ll let you know once I know a bit more
Love
Rali

[Julesdickson]

I’m sorry it’s taking so long! I’m still waiting for the other guides to confirm or ask questions. For some reason it’s taking a bit longer than usual :(. I’ll let you know once I know a bit more
Love
Rali

No problem, no rush.

[poppyseed]

Hi Jules
Welcome home!

Thank you for your beautiful answers! I really enjoyed reading them! It has been such a pleasure to walk beside you through the gateless gate! Your openness and willingness to look were simply awesome and made guiding you a joy.

You will receive an email notifying you of a PM from the forum, inviting you to join LU's Facebook groups. It also has other information that might be of interest to you. I will inbox you my contact details if you want to stay in touch. If you have any questions, just ask, or you can drop a line on your thread here and I will respond.

Your username will change from green to blue which indicates that you have had the realisation of no separate self. This thread will be moved to the ‘Archive’ section of the forum, but you will be able to access it.

Please don’t forget that this is just the beginning of exploring. It’s the beginning of cleaning up of all sorts of old beliefs. Emotions and feelings can show up to be seen and felt, so don’t stop looking! Please feel free to contact me, so we can have a look together, if you like.

You can still answer the questions in my previous reply if you like :)
Love
Rali

[Julesdickson]

Hi Jules
Welcome home!

Thank you for your beautiful answers! I really enjoyed reading them! It has been such a pleasure to walk beside you through the gateless gate! Your openness and willingness to look were simply awesome and made guiding you a joy.

You will receive an email notifying you of a PM from the forum, inviting you to join LU's Facebook groups. It also has other information that might be of interest to you. I will inbox you my contact details if you want to stay in touch. If you have any questions, just ask, or you can drop a line on your thread here and I will respond.

Your username will change from green to blue which indicates that you have had the realisation of no separate self. This thread will be moved to the ‘Archive’ section of the forum, but you will be able to access it.

Please don’t forget that this is just the beginning of exploring. It’s the beginning of cleaning up of all sorts of old beliefs. Emotions and feelings can show up to be seen and felt, so don’t stop looking! Please feel free to contact me, so we can have a look together, if you like.

You can still answer the questions in my previous reply if you like :)
Love
Rali
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Perfect, thank you so much for everything. I will join the following groups and add your Facebook. :)