Hand on the gate

[LoveEd]

Still going ... more dust balls ...

xx

[Lubo]

Oo,

Still going ... more dust balls ...

Play with them.
Notice what ball is here. Connect with it. Take a pillow, let it be this ball. Hug it, cuddle it, squish it, sit on it, play with it. See there's a lot of juicy energy locked in it.

Love
Lubo

[LoveEd]

haha thank you - this sensation has been here 'all my life', trying to cover up, to try to stop whats happening now from happening on so many levels. Trying to stop judgement and rejection. It is all out in the light - theres still a thread of 'oh no' but just a thread - what does it matter? can see/ know that nothing has actually happened - all opinion, all objection, all worry and what ifs.....

I'm going to do this today with the pillow I will gather them up in to my pillow and have fun -

x

[LoveEd]

What a storm Lubo! Imaginary hell!!! hell for the image!

All of it arising from opinions, fear and what ifs - seems like everything has changed in the external - a story line has collapsed - it seems - i don't know ... theres no desire to try and fix it or defend or anything, just is
this morning there is calm, much less thought -

the sense of living in fun love and joy seems lighter - not explosive, but room made for it
Noticing that the shield sensation in the body is not there, more flow, the desire to maintain charmain story is not there

I don't know how else to describe. Im at peace, but maybe its just not worried?, maybe realisation there is nothing to be of shame


Thank you

with love

x

[Lubo]

Hi Charmain,

All of it arising from opinions, fear and what ifs - seems like everything has changed in the external - a story line has collapsed - it seems - i don't know ... theres no desire to try and fix it or defend or anything, just is
this morning there is calm, much less thought -

Nice. yes we are living this "what ifs" imagined world and we forgot what we are.
fear becomes our oxygen. We believe without "what ifs" we will die.

I don't know how else to describe. Im at peace, but maybe its just not worried?, maybe realisation there is nothing to be of shame

Wonderful. Shame is virus program. All society live and produce shame

Now notice is there personality, entity or there is one existence being?

Love
Lubo

[LoveEd]

Now notice is there personality, entity or there is one existence being?

How do I notice this Lubo (theres a thought that I get 'stuck' here)

Just noticing!

Its like I'm watching the story play out - with little charge - i guess I'm still a bit identified with the personality and feeling some emotion (just had another 'shaming' phone call) - but feeling quite alive in it rather than woeful
but still-

still an I watching the story though

How do I see the existence away instead of from apparent view of the personality? .....

Thank you so much Lubo x

[Lubo]

Now notice is there personality, entity or there is one existence being?

How do I notice this Lubo (theres a thought that I get 'stuck' here)

Notice that there is identification with the body + story about it?

Now you have permission :) to identify yourself with oneness. And you will start notice the evidences.
During the walking, tea making...there is personality in the body wich makes things happen or this is you oneness appear as walking, tea making...
Notice what realisation "no separate me" points: Me will become Oneness or you/Oneness realise that you are not an entity?

Enjoy your freedom ;)
lubo

[LoveEd]

Thank you!

Sense of peace today. Like really peaceful!

I could actually dance .. and will do - identify with oneness dance day today

thank you

<3

[Lubo]

Nice :)

I could actually dance .. and will do - identify with oneness dance day today

Yes. dance. Notice is there who, which is dancing or there is a dance?

[LoveEd]

Yes, all nice
More peace today. Body is lighter, like a pressure has gone.
No pressure.

No filtering - nothing to filter - nothing to protect through filters

i will notice - the who - seems less obvious there is a who - or that it matters
x

[LoveEd]

Hey Lubo

I'm sitting here not sure what to write

I can't compare where I am to anything - no moment of realisation - no feelings of anything really

Although perhaps a constant vigilance or seeing / being of now

I was marvelling at the apparent interchange, play, is-ness of everything - but just now seems like all inevitable

There was a 'huge' dust ball this morning .. there were momentary tears and them nothing - it just is - no choice, nothing to blame any more - it doesn't mean anything - just an echo of the self blame thoughts - not sticking - freedom from a bunch of pain

today is very still - snow outside, no cars, peace

much love
x

[Lubo]

Hi dear Charmain,
Marry Christmas and Happy New year.

Somehow I missed your last reply, sorry for that.

Are you still with me?

How are you now?


Much love
Lubo

[LoveEd]

Hello Lubo
Yes I"m still with you. Thank you.

I left UK iend of December and have been on a journey into Mexico. Im still here. I am with friends, we are moving around a lot, and there has been a huge undoing of charmain"s life. Everything shifted in the external.

There is little guilt, letting go of all responsibility and identity from the roles. The work around realising around shame brought about much change.

There is constant vigilance to thought, the mind narrative, and i continual choosing of God.

I still feel "here". Although all around doesnt hold any meaning at all anymore. Its just whats happening, im just in the flow of that.

Would love to continue with you.

Thank you
Charmain
X

[Lubo]

Hi dear Charmain,

This is wonderful news.
Enjoy your journey in Mexico!

Would love to continue with you.

Nice. let's do it

There is little guilt, letting go of all responsibility and identity from the roles. The work around realising around shame brought about much change.

SO, you noticed that there is shame and guilt coming - these programs are coming as a charmain's thought-voice to say: "There is a little entity called charmain" and also "This charmain is incapable and thats why we are here to rule her, to advise her and to punish her" and of course "I charmain am guilty and ashamed"
is it like that?

Now notice without identification of any image and any charmine - do thoughts-programs have power?
Are they have a subject to whom they are speaking to?

This thought-program is coming like a friend to protect you, but this is not exactly a friend, this is a deceiver, which cheats you explaining what you are and that's how keeps you to live in its story and you are becoming slave to this cheater.
And all this is because there is identification with what this program says "you are charmain/entity".

Notice that there is no entity which produces thoughts?
Notice that there is only an image of identity to whom these thoughts are speaking to?

Without identification with the image the program dies and that's why the program keeps you in shame and guilt with a promise that it will help you :)

Challenge this program with:
"I am not guilty of anything. I am not ashamed from anything. Let everyone sees this what shame hides"

Repeat this until you feel that the program has no more power, until you feel that the program is not holding you

Much love
Lubo
PS. Tomorrow, the 22nd, 1 pm GMT we have a gathering. I think you are in mailing list, join us if you can.

x

[LoveEd]

thank you... Big shift here.. Beautiful day...

I would love to join your meeting... .. Only free for first hour though.. Is that ok? X