Guidance needed please

[Badgerbob]

Hi. I’ve used this site several years ago, but never got to see through the separate self. Here I am again. If there is any guide out there who is infinitely (well, almost) patient and doesn’t talk BS and spiritual airy fairy waffle; just real no nonsense common sense, then I am eagerly awaiting your guidance! Thank you

[Lubo]

Hi,
My name is Lubo.
I would love to join you in this inquiry, if you are ok?
How you prefer to call you?

Best
lubo

[Badgerbob]

Thanks Lubo! I hope you’re up to the challenge. The last time I tried this it didn’t end so well. Paul

[Lubo]

Hi Paul,

I hope you’re up to the challenge.

Yes :) but notice without a story is there a challenge in reality? What colour is it? Record the sound of the challenge? What about its smell, taste? Is it soft or dry on touching?

Love
lubo

[Badgerbob]

See you’ve already lost me! What are you on about?

[Lubo]

Ok, This is your investigation. I am your mirror.

What are you looking for precisely?

[Badgerbob]

I am hoping to see for myself and truly ‘know’ that there is no self. I believe there is no self, but I don’t know.

[Lubo]

I believe there is no self, but I don’t know.

Look around. What is THIS?
Without ideas, notice what is real This or that there is someone who knows this?
Is there a knowing or these are just ideas?

[Badgerbob]

All I know for sure is that ‘I’ am aware and therefore must exist in some way. There is a presence, a constant knowing, that cannot be denied.

[Lubo]

All I know for sure is that ‘I’ am aware and therefore must exist in some way. There is a presence, a constant knowing, that cannot be denied.

let's look closely here.
On one hand is an I and on the other aware=knowing
but in reality Non-dual, No 2. Which one of this two elements is imagination?

on one hand knowing and on other hand things that are known = 2 things, but Non-dual, no 2...?
What if this two things are one and the same?
Is it possible to find knowing without an object?
Is it possible to find an object without knowing? - take a picture of such an object?

Clue: Knowing and ideas are two different things, Ideas are known also, aren't they?

[Badgerbob]

I guess the I must be imagined. The knowing is simply knowing that I am here now, existing, being. This is surely knowing without an object. The only object being the one who is knowing. This is all sounding stupid and philosophical claptrap lol. Trying to describe the indescribable. I really struggle with this. It’s almost impossibly subtle and I end up talking in circles. It’s like trying to describe the smell of the colour purple or what does happiness taste of. I really don’t know how to answer your questions Lubo.

[Lubo]

Wonderful!
Thanks for the honesty.
look here:

The knowing is simply knowing that I am here now, existing, being.

Paul, does the knowing of existence and existence are two things? Is there someone who knows existence?
Let's this one stop know? What are you doing preciously to know? Is there effort to knowing be here?
Does these things are separate:
knowing = here?
knowing = existence?
knowing = now?
knowing=being?
Notice that there is a knowing and the language is making a doer, a knower. Like - it's raining, there is a suggestion that there is someone who make rain. it's raining= I know, but what is real someone who do the raining or rain? Someone who knows or knowing?
Someone who exists or existence?

This is surely knowing without an object. The only object being the one who is knowing

Does the knowing is an object?

[Badgerbob]

No there is no difference between knowing existence and existing. Just one thing

[Lubo]

No there is no difference between knowing existence and existing. Just one thing

Yes. Wonderful.
Where is the I then? Is there separation?
Notice the thoughts, can they make a real separation?

[Badgerbob]

There just seems to be this aware, knowing presence and thoughts just pop up into the awareness. Talk of looking for separation and borders doesn’t make sense to me. I don’t understand the concept.