Awakent

[Seamist]

Ok, explore that a bit more.
Did it have a smell? Colour? Shape?

[Abner]

Did it have a smell? Colour? Shape?
No...No...&..No
Just a feeling

[Seamist]

And what is it saying to you?
Take your time!

[Abner]

And what is it saying to you?

Not sure, but I think it is saying that Im
afraid. Maybe of loosing something...but
not really sure. It is something that I have
suspected for a while. That is why I didnt have
to think about it for to long..

[Seamist]

And what's behind that fear?

[Abner]

And what's behind that fear?

Maybe the thought of not being in control.
I have always been someone who needs
to be in control.

Please dont accept this as ultimate truth
because
it just might be my imagination...Not really sure!

[Seamist]

Maybe the thought of not being in control.

yes, I can understand that. Remember, though, that in this work, you are just seeing that something you thought existed, never did. As Ilona says "If there is no self, then there is nothing that needs to be protected, right?"
Honor the feeling. Bow to it, thank it for doing its job. Notice, it is here to protect, it's a friend. Fear is really love in disguise. It is only showing you where to look, the dark areas.

Now, look behind that

xx

[Abner]

Thats what I was hoping for.
If there is no self...there is no one to protect or blame.

[Seamist]

Is there anyone there?

[Abner]

Yes...at least I think so

[Seamist]

So when you say:

If there is no self...there is no one to protect or blame

- is this more of a theoretical understanding than a deep knowing?

[Abner]

is this more of a theoretical understanding than a deep knowing?

If it were a deep knowing...I would be home
free. Its only a theoretical understanding so
far.

[Abner]

Theres still hope!

[Seamist]

If it were a deep knowing...I would be home
free. Its only a theoretical understanding so
far.

that's fine: that's what we're here to do!

Let's look at your expectations now. I realise that you may already have done his, but there will be no harm in doing it again if you have.
What do you expect that liberation is going to be like?
What do you want from it?
How do you imagine a liberated human behaves?
What should it be like?
What will it give you, what do you hope for?
What don't you want it to be like?

And while I remember - I just want to check our possibly different time zones. What time is it with you know? I'm in the UK and it's 11.26am as I write this.
Sioned

[Abner]

Its 6:28 here...I am +7
I will go back to ans. the questions