I Need Guidance

[vinceschubert]

I am not using a lot of mental energy

Ah, great. Yes, that mental energy = resistance = depletion. And it also prevents us from SEEing. It diverts our attention by keeping us locked in thought.

figuring this out.

It can't be figured out. Mind can't understand this. You will 'feel' it.

where I am stuck.

You're not stuck. A metaphor would be that you have been wading through thigh deep mud. Thick mud. And two posts ago - just after you returned from your break, the mud thinned and the depth dropped to knee level.
Tell me about the sense of me-ness ? (as it is now)

[Noobstorm]

Tell me about the sense of me-ness ? (as it is now)

When I say "I" or "me" and when others say "you" I see that it always seems to be referring to this human being. This being is all that is found with empirical observation as my self. My feelings of control are very strong and haven't been affected by these questions. I don't understand how things can be done autonomously, it just doesn't make any sense no matter what logic is given to me.

[vinceschubert]

it just doesn't make any sense no matter what logic is given to me.

It can't be figured out. Mind can't understand this. You will 'feel' it.

If it can't be figured out, that is, arrived at logically. If mind can't understand it, then what you say is true. And it is true.
How then can you experience it ?
If it could be arrived at logically, wouldn't there be a lot more liberated people. It could be taught at school.
If it can't be captured by mind, then what is the purpose of these questions ? (write your first thoughts)

[Noobstorm]

If it can't be captured by mind, then what is the purpose of these questions ? (write your first thoughts)

The questions are supposed to make someone look introspectively.

[vinceschubert]

The questions are supposed to make someone look introspectively.

Exactly, and that doesn't mean look then think about..
It means observe, witness and be aware that any opinion about, any judgement about what is observed is a diversion away from that observation.
When you observe, do you see an I ?

[Noobstorm]

When you observe, do you see an I ?

No, without thinking about what is observed/observing.

[vinceschubert]

Ali, can you see the story ABOUT a you ?

[Noobstorm]

Ali, can you see the story ABOUT a you ?

Yes, there are factual stories about this human being.

[vinceschubert]

Yes, there are factual stories about this human being.

The key words being "stories about".
They exist mostly as memories, right ? and maybe some imaginations about the future ?

[Noobstorm]

The key words being "stories about".
They exist mostly as memories, right ? and maybe some imaginations about the future ?

Yes the past is frequently brought up, and the future is dreamed about too. There is also a story of(what seems to be) the present moment.

[vinceschubert]

There is also a story of(what seems to be) the present moment.

Ah, good one Ali.
Examine this (by observation) and tell me if that story comes a split second AFTER the actual experiencing ?

[Noobstorm]

There is also a story of(what seems to be) the present moment.

Ah, good one Ali.
Examine this (by observation) and tell me if that story comes a split second AFTER the actual experiencing ?

It's difficult to observe this, but sometimes that may be the case. Sometimes it appears the thought story and life happen simultaneously.

[vinceschubert]

Sometimes it appears the thought story and life happen simultaneously.

Can you see two things happening at the same time ? A story about life and life itself.
Is not life itself, experiencing ?
Is not story about life, thoughts ?

[Noobstorm]

Sometimes it appears the thought story and life happen simultaneously.

Can you see two things happening at the same time ? A story about life and life itself.
Is not life itself, experiencing ?
Is not story about life, thoughts ?

Yes I can see this, there is life and thoughts about life.

[vinceschubert]

Yes I can see this, there is life and thoughts about life.

Now, can you see that the thoughts about life (the thoughts not their content) are also part of life ?
And can you also see that the reactions to the content of those thoughts is also life ?
Now, can you see that the contents of those thought about life, is not part of life but that they affect life? They distort it. The influence it according to their flavor.