Robyn,
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No self there never was.
2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
The illusion is believing that thoughts are an entity called a self, me or I. In reality thoughts are phenomena that pass through awareness, they are not chosen. The content is usually about an illusionary self a poor ‘me’ and is always in Time resisting what was (past) or what might be (future), denying the present experience/moment. It starts at about the age of 3 when a child can interpret language and experience the 'I' thoughts.
3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
When ‘I am’ aware it feels neither good nor bad, kind of an empty peaceful feeling, (expansion). At the start ‘I’ was searching for a better experience, the next step/stage. ‘I’ realise now that that seeking would mean ‘I’’ believe in a separate self that can attain that. This feels peaceful that there is nothing to do but experience life.
4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
Desire for truth. One experience leads to another. looking became more peaceful without care if anything is found to be honest.
5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.
These are all concepts and can only be found in thought content, never experienced. Life just happens, there isn’t anything else to say about it, everything just is what it is.
6)Is there anything you would like to add?
From experience it seems to be open honest, authentic and loving will make life flow. This is of course thought content but it is also realised through trial and error on a deeper level that doesn’t need proof or explanation.
Love always
Andrew
