Hey Kay
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Yes…colourthought appearing in/as THIS! :) There is thought about a person going to sleep and dreaming, and there is thought about a person waking up from a sleep. The idea you're a person that falls asleep, dreams and then wakes up, is just part of this 'current dream' that no person is dreaming, and no person could/need ever wake up from, as nothing is asleep.
This is such a relief to finally see now, haha :)
That's got to be Albert Einstein, right?
Yes :)
Is there really an Albert Einstein, or what is actually present is colourthought? Notice how thought says that there are eyes, a tongue, nose, moustache and so on and notice how thought is doing this with ‘everything’. If there were no thought, would there even seem to be any ‘things’?
I see what you mean Kay. If there was no label 'albert einstein'. then the thoughts would just say 'human', removing that label, thoughts would say 'eyes, nose, a tounge' etc. removing those labels as well thought problably would say 'black, white' etc.. but there is just AE which is 'colourthought'. :)
Great! So let’s take even this one step further. Close your eyes and turn the palm up and down. Is there really ‘movement’? What is the actual experience?
There is just AE of sensation.
Yes, thought is a great story teller, although thought can’t tell stories either! ;)
Haha yes yes you are correct, just meaning that when allowing thoughts to 'take over' the whole identification starts with everything around. :), they can't tell stories but they sure try, LOL :D
Yes, it happens when it happens and it SEEMS that is happens when it is needed to happen! :)
Yes exactly! That is a very good way to put it. The "I" attaches to the "Oh it is happening to ME because this and that", rather than seeing that what IS, is 'appearing when it is appearing'. Nothing more to it than that.
So it was clearly seen that there is no controller? Since there is no one/no thing that is controlling the turning of the palm, is there anyone/anything that is controlling anything at all?
Yes, there is no controller. I do see however how hard the illusion of 'I' is trying to grab the credit for the actions. No there is nothing controlling, 'anyone/anything' is pointing to there being something else, which there is not, just THIS. :)
In step 1 when thinking about their respective qualities, did you ‘choose’ the qualities? Or did they kind of appear by themselves? If some preferences manifested, did you ‘choose’ these preferences? Or did they just pop up by themselves?
When looking at drink A and B, labels/thoughts just appeared by them self. I had no choosing in the preferences (it went kind of fast back and forth between which one was the 'best'), they also appeared like the thoughts did.
In step 2 when you counted to 5, if the preferences took the back seat while the numbers took the front seat, did you ‘choose’ this sequence of event? Did you ‘choose’ to shut down the preferences to give way to the counting? Did you directly experience a mental function or faculty doing the ‘choosing’? Have you seen this function in action?
There is the belief that 'I' was following steps, an 'I" that was directed in the exercise to count in step 2. But it was not my choosing if the counting would overlap the preferences or the other way around.
I can see that the 'I' is saying "I choose too overlap the preferences by counting, cause I was directing thought/focus to it', but taking a step back and just observing, I see that there is just a event like many others that happens where the self identification makes the attachment, and thinks that the 'actions of Hesam' is what made for exampel: 'Hesam' take a right turn here, or choosing 'counting' before ' thoughts'.
In step 3 where you made a choice, did you actually witness or directly experience a mental function or faculty doing the ‘choosing’? Did anything arise that announced, ‘I am the chooser’? If so, what does this function look like?
The thoughts went the other way, rather than saying "I am choosing drink A", thoughts appeared that "I am clueless in which one who is going to be chosen", and when counting was done, the right arm just grabbed drink B. "the chooser" arise, in many ways, during the choosing, during the counting but I was not attached to it, I was just observing the 'I'. I did not feel as if I was choosing anything, I was just watching it happen and watching the stream of thoughts appearing.
Sometimes we describe this sense of choosing as a ‘feeling’: It feels like ‘I’ did the ‘choosing’. But the question is, can a feeling ‘choose’? Is it in the nature of a feeling to ‘choose’?
'Feeling' is just a label from thought, which knows nothing, same goes for 'choose' so these two don't know about them self or about each other. But I can see how the 'feeling' or 'gut feeling' or what calls, is attached to the thought of 'I", which wants to connect the two.
I am using a lot if the word: I and also 'I'.. I hope that you see what I mean when typing like that in my broken English sentences haha :)
Much love!
Hesam
