Dreambus Driver

[Devissimus]

Hi Tao,

Just to report that I'm still chipping.
When I collect the scribbles, I'll post them.

Thank you,

Dev

[Tao]

No probs Dev,

Try to keep enquiry strong, post when you can

Tao

[Devissimus]

Hi Tao,

I feel we left the whole thing undone.

In the meantime, one idea crept in: If in DE the self cannot be found, it does not necessary proves that it don't exist -- it might just be out or beyond the perceivable/conceivable range. Can we say that such things don't exist?
For instance, take the x-rays -- if one cannot see them, feel them nor conceive their presence, it doesn't mean he or she will not be influenced or radiated by them nor that they are not present and existing.
The same might be the case with the self. The self cannot be found. So who is searching? Who -- or what -- is doing the search? Or what fuels the search?
It might be "something", just outside of perceivable range.

Thnx,

Dev

[Devissimus]

I'm surprised to see that this thread got so many views. I don't know much about forums and social networks. I don't know is there's anyone who still reads this anymore. But somehow I feel this as a kind of unfinished business, so I want to put some final words to it.

Many different things happened after my last exchange with Tao two years ago, including some life's kicks like illness on my side and death of some very dear people and a close friend. But somehow, it all get clear. 

I'm leaving this post to myself, in case I ever happen to forget. 

There's no outside to what-I-am. 

What-I-am -- what-every-I-is -- is endless. It is the endlessness itself, and it does not have an outside. 

An "outside" is possible only in thought, only as a kind of mental gymnastic, a linguistic artistry of this amazing mind, but not really, not in what-is. 
"Outside" can only appear to what-I-think-I-am, because what-I-think-I-am is a result of a mind-proposed fragmentation of being, and with it of mis-taking, mis-assigning the being itself to this creation of mind. What mind suggests to be excluded from being, it presents as being "outside" of being. But beside, prior and throughout this whole mind"s charade, being -- what-I-am -- is unperturbed endlessness, with no outside to it. 

To all of "you" who are reading this, I'll try to express this as if it would be coming from an outside place.
It does not.
It is coming straight from what-you-are, from the very core of your being, but you will never know it, except by being "it". 
And being itself can never be regarded as an "it", like we do it in language.  
Ah, words...

Keep in mind that when I use personal pronouns here, they are entirely interchangeable. Through using "I" and "you" and "it" -- whichever -- I'm pointing to the same.

What-you-are is everything altogether; the totality of all existence.
That is the fullness of "your" being, of what-you-are, and it is the same as of the fullness of "mine" being, of what-I-am. 
That being is mine/yours/our energetic reality.
It's endless. 
What-you-are is endlessness itself. 

There's no outside to endlessness that you are, except in your imagination, in your thoughts, in your dream or daydream. 

This imagination is petty but becomes powerful when given power, when mis-taken for real.

And all of your problems stem from this mis-taking the dream for reality. 

I'll repeat this again to the last "someone else" disguise that ever ends up here reading this. I'm telling this to the last grain of self-forgetfulness that may appear here: 

BEING -- what-you-are -- DOES NOT HAVE AN OUTSIDE. 

That is all that is ever needed to be known. 

This cuts through everything -- ecology, politics, religion, therapies, relations -- all those figments of our imagination. Without it, moral teachings of all cultures and religions like "Be kind to each other" are dry. They never really worked. 

This is the ground of it all: 

You do not have an outside. 

WHOM will you harm when you do not have an outside? Whom CAN you harm when what-you-are does not have an outside?  
Full being -- what-I-am / what-you-are / what-everything-is -- does not have an outside. 

As you have no real outside, so you have no real opposition. The only opposition life can possibly have only in a dream. It is only seeming opposition, a dream opposition. 

Error have no essence. 

Opposition does not exist except in a dream and for the dream character, in -- or as -- its world, the dream world.

Whatever-you-think-you-are is a reduction of your being. It is simply a wrong starting position, a mis-identity, a confusion. 

Everybody is swayambhu; the one who created itself. It is done in similar way you created a dream-character for yourself when you dream.
What-you-are is the WHOLE dream. But through the mind, through the dream machine's magic, you've entered a reduced dream-self, your dream-character.
From this reduced dream-self, your own being (the whole of the dream) is experienced as being outside of dream-character, seen as a dream-character's "outside" or "the world".

And very much the same is happening in your daydream just now, in this so called wakeful state.

That is the Matrix.